S2 day 70

[Sanya]

So now that I've reached the 'home stretch' of my season 2. I'd like to finally put some more attention into my morning routine. So that I can start my days off more focused, clearer, and hopefully feel more energised throughout the day because of it....Haven't yet got a 100% clear idea of how this is going to materialise, but I would like to start by having a longer electronic-free period at the beginning of the day....We'll see how it goes...

I've also started writing a list every day in my journal of 'five happy memories, or aspects I like about my mother'. We haven't had the best relationship in the past, and this has deeply affected my character and the way that I feel about myself over the years. I did a lot of work on this during the Theta Healing course last week, and in the days that followed. I've already noticed a change in myself, and was even able to call her last Sunday to see how she was doing. This is something which I'd usually avoid doing. It was great. And this list is really helping me to focus on her good qualities, of which I am realising there are a myriad. She really is a wonderful person (which I always knew, and that's probably what hurt me the most - that somebody so wonderful and special didn't really like me as a person) I'd like to once again return to the place of knowing this fully, and feel that it is safe to do so, whether she thinks and feels the same way about me or not. I'd like to be able to openly love her and show her affection without the fear of being hurt.
Maybe it's stupid to dwell on this, after all I have moved on and have a wonderful family of my own - better than I could ever have expected or wished for. I don't know, I guess that I'm just looking for some closure and peace in this area, that's all.

[Sanya]

a-ha a timer could indeed work well! Great idea Mascha! xoxo

[Mascha]

Hi lovely Sanya!!

Thank you, thank you for your beautiful comment on my vid<<blush>>!! It made my day!!

A longer electronic free period of the day- yes totally know what you mean!!! Times flies when you're having fun!! Maybe you can get a timer or clock next to the pc- so only one hour in the morning or something~*

Can imagine the difficult relationship with your mother is still having effect on you Love the way how you're transforming this- by listening to the voice of your own wise woman inside and focusing on her (maybe actually your own?) good qualities as well Very healing~*

I'm sure you'll find inner peace You are so beautiful and a terrific mom yourself!!

BIG HUG
xoxoxo Mascha