Pre-Season Blog Post # 1

[Brileigh]

Dear Friends:

It has only been the first ten days of 2009, and somehow I already feel very tired, worn out...and not too optimistic about things. I don't know if it's because I haven't done anything extremely exciting yet or what...but I definitely want to change my outlook for this year to be the best year of my entire life!! And of course more after that...lol.

A few things that did rack my brain was rebuilding some friendships....we are slowly progressing but it can be draining too. But I keep telling myself it's a new year, and I'm going to try my best to make everything better than it was.

Also the guy that I like we have talked more (which I am so happy about) --most of it online unfortunately. However, because of things that happened in my past, has let fear overwhelm me. I honestly fear that I have nothing to give but the good, sweet, hearted person that I am. I still question if he likes me or what. All I know is if I don't ask one day I'll never know right??

Last night I bought a book called

"How not to be afraid of your own life: Opening Your Heart To Confidence, Intimacy, and Joy."
(Features a 7 Day Freedom From Fear Meditation Program)
Author: Susan Piver

I hope by reading this it can help me in some way.

Another issue I have is ACTUALLY GETTING THINGS DONE. I'm planning to actually use the ITOUCH that my mom bought me for Christmas 2007, and use the organizer/planner....and plan my days better.

My goal for this weekend is to get my house organized the way I want, and to be fully ready for the 100 Day Challenge.....I CAN DO THIS!!

Any comments & suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

Much Love,
B

[Lizbeth]

Hi Brileigh,
Hope the weekend went well for you .... I'd like to pass on a few wise words that were shared with me many moons ago ..... throughout the day everyday, before you leave a room always leave it one part tidier/cleaner/more organized.... than when you entered. Things as simple as straightening a picture or folding a towel or.... sounds like not very much I know but it is amazing how much it helped me avoid the sense of overwhelming disaster looming!
Hoping you too might find the words helpful and best wishes for your new 100 day challenge.
lizbeth

[PinkPetals]

Heya Beautiful,
I understand your post. But don't worry this is all normal. Think how far you will have grown when you look back at this post. I have the same goal as you off the bat, basically trusting love. You could practice loving yourself first. I am working on this every day. don't stress about your friends too much, the Law of attraction allows friends who no longer serve you to leave your life and allow new friends to come in. About the guy, you should tell him your feelings if you feel ready and no matter what he says, there is a guy waiting for you, to cherish the lovely person you are. You have to cherish you too. *hugs*