Overcoming Ego

[Tamara Rasheed]

I always believed that I was supposed to have someone to cook for me and someone to drive me around where I wanted to go, and that I would take frequent trips to places of my choice in the world and have my chef follow me etc. I believed that I would be in a place in my finances and in my comfort to have the life of my choosing. I still believe this. I also believe that everyone I come in contact with will be able to receive a part of my ability to live this way, so that they can duplicate that into a meaning for themselves and their own lives. I do not acquire anything solely for myself.

When I started dealing with network marketing in 2001 with the infectious desire to be obsessed with money and material wealth and status, being trained to carry on a culture of thinking that I am better than other people because I wanted to be this brand of entrepreneur when they still chose to be employed, my ego started to grow. I entered the realm of real estate in 2005, and met my ex-husband who was gifted on a genius level of IQ and had been blessed to be a working millionaire due to his talents in business. The culture of ego that he cultivated was one of a class ego and intelligence ego. You became a snob, and felt like associating with those who helped you make your money brought you down to their level - where they didn't have as much and didn't know as much as you did, and never would.

Forming the ability in your mind to judge others based upon Earthly haves and have nots when NONE OF THAT is truly important strips you of your humanity. You no longer are the soulful, spirited human being you were born and grew up as, instead, you have traded that freedom for the confines of a material mind that makes you a god and makes others less than you, while you envy those who have more and would even kill them to have what they have. My ex husband even went to school to get his Ph.D. in Theology - a degree, for him, that was based solely around questioning God instead of revering him (this is my ex-husband's perspective, not everyone who studies Theology is this way).

I would never again want to have those feelings of confinement within myself and with people who truly didn't care for me, but only cared about who I was with and what I had. Trust, that if you lose any of those things you acquired, you are no longer a part of that group - no matter how involved in their family you were, no matter whether you had children in that family, no matter what business ties you created or what respect you used to have - you are no longer a part of that group. And they make sure that you feel it.

Be humble. Nothing on this earth is promised except for our present moment. You cannot take earthly good with you, so they are best kept when others can use them eventually. Recycle what you no longer need through others who are in need of them. Every person is entitled to their particular type of awakening. You are no more able to judge them on how awake they are than they are able to judge you.

Overcome your ego by understanding that what you have now is satisfactory. People are meant to be different in their perspectives - that is what makes us beautiful. Stop seeing individuals as colors of their skin, or class based upon their wallet or where they live or how they dress. Every person is a human being, just like you, in their own phase of awakening. Anything else you add to what you have is not out of desperation or obsession, but out of your desire just to have it for a practical purpose. What does it add to your life? How can you help others through your purchase?

Just some food for thought. :)

Much Love,
Tamara