Lights, camera, action - it's crunch time... but am I ready??

[Lydie>--]

Lydie (me) the wanna be event coordinator slash project manager was supposed to be done organizing her father's memorial service and reception by now. I could almost THROW up cause it all takes place next Saturday. As I type this my stomach squeezes with anxiety and vexation against myself cause (yep you've guest right) I am now just activating the dam machine !!!! WHY :( I need a shrink? This procrastination is a disease yall! I know I am being hard on myself but in retrospective I'd tell anyone like me the same!

On the bright side YES I CAN and YES I WILL and YES IT WILL BE FINE. Chhhhaaaaa. This blog was nothing fun, positive or nothing like that. Agonizingly and painfully just me being real with myself.

Any ideas or things I shouldn't forget.. for that day, please feel free to comment! Much love all

Blessed wknd & xoxoxo

[Lydie>--]

THANK YOU GUYS.. THIS WAS PRICELESS. MUCH LOVE XX

[~* Princess Ariana *~]

Well, Congratulations Amigita....

Eres humana. And these are hard times you're dealing with right now.. The last thing you should do is be hard on yourself. Do the oppsite, love yourself. As I am sure your Dad loves you. (Love is an energy, and energy can never be destroyed; hence why I used a "present tense")

You have good reason to have procrastinated. Emotions are at high-tide right now.. but it's also a good time to meet ends with yourself and come to terms with your regrets, sharpen your strengths and weaken your flaws.....

I'm sorry to hear of your loss... But I once read and even heard, that those we love never really leave us. The magic of humanity is that we are infinite beings. (whether it be spirits, energy, or whatever you feel you believe in.)

As soon as you straighten your mind, you'll know what to do. It's all inside of you, instinctually.

And once emotions aren't tumbling over your thoughts, reasonings, and character... You'll do what feels right. And your flow will arrange itself back on it's feet where it belongs..

I send you my blessings, strength and best wishes...

You can do this.. You are not alone..

[Conscious Kitty]

Hi Lydia,
i have been in your position, having to arrange the memorial for my mom. I thought I would give you a few things you .may want to think about. Flowers (you may want to choose ones that remind you of him, or go with a colour that reminds you), candles, music, photos of him (maybe a collage or get some blown up and framed), transportation for the immediate family... If you go to a funeral parlour, they will guide you through alot of this and you can just add your finishing touches. You also need to think of speakers and someone to lead the memorial, like an MC. I dont suggest trying to handle this yourself. Someone a little further removed may be able to get through it more easily.I am not religious, but maybe a pastor would do this if you are part of a church (sorry, I'm not sure). You also have to think about food if there will be a reception. Just ask family members to bring a dish. You may want arrange to rent some extra chairs or a large coffee thing etc.

Well I hope that helps you get the thought process going. These are the things I remember doing. I am really sorry for your loss honey. It will be a tough thing to do, but you'll probably slip in to auto pilot once you get going and before you know it, it will be over and you will feel some relief on your heavy heart.

Good luck Lydia, hang in there. xo

[Robin Amy Bass]

Thank you for your comment...I'm sorry for your loss! You're right...you are hard on yourself...and I know about Procrastination and all sorts of other "Dis-ease"! Take your time and turn towards the positive and light, at your own pace.

Now I'm off to work, before I'm late...Be well!

[Maggie]

Amen to ALL that Maria said. WHO would want to get moving on a memorial for their own father? To me, that sounds like you are in charge of the finality of his life, and omg- how painful and heavy is that burden? I think you will do a beautiful job, and it will turn out lovely, but I don't think you should think of this one as part of your future career. Jobs are supposed to be fun and fulfilling. No matter how you plan it, burying your father will never be fun. I'm guessing the squeezing anxiety, and feeling of wanting to throw up is less about procrastination, and more about grief and fear about not having your dad here any longer?

Ok, now I DO sound like a shrink, but LOVE yourself, and be kind, this isn't going to be easy, but we are all behind you. ps: i love that painting as well!!!

[Maria]

Hey!

Lighten up, sista'! I'm not a shrink, but I will lend a listening ear, if you like!

Doesn't sound like your father's memorial service is like the funniest event you can imagine organizing... So cut yourself some slack, and as you say, YES it will all be fine in the end! Perhaps you needed to hit rock bottom to stomp off to new, unimagined heights?

The photo of the painting is beautiful, I'm sure your father will be honoured to have that be part of his memorial service, somehow!

Love & Light from France,

: ) Maria