In a really dark place

[Jessie]

1st off im not doing the LOA thing very well, its so easy to get into old habit of thinking. I feel like im letting myself and my dreams down, why cant I just trust that it works and go with it?

Any ways im not good at fallowing through on things so I guess I have fallen off the LOA wagon........ but I want life to get better............ im lost..........

The weekend was ok until Monday evening.

I talked to A~~~~....(not going into it but she made me really really really sad with what she had to say.)

I was laying in bed, trying to manifest my own death. I wanted to die, I could feel pain..... this isn't the 1st time I have ever thought of this. I try not to think of death but it comes up periodicly...especally when E~~~ is involved. :( Its unhealthy and I know I need to get some help.

But the things she says...... sometimes she just doesn't know what she talking about!
And it bothers me because this is part of my future!!!!! I am moving to Michigan, but in doing that I don't want to hurt A~~~~ or E~~~. But her negative vibe makes it very hard to stay focused. (You may say just dont talk to her...not that easy.)

Im very down.......... I cried alot last night and I couldn't sleep the last 2 hours this morning...and I cried somemore this morning, and bawled to my mom so she got upset.... she doesn't want me to move................... im hurt......im lost...im scared.....anxiety....pain......

And I know the LOA you need to change the way you think but some days its not that easy!

And the weather is nasty today so that doesn't help....

[Noelbeltran]

Hi, stay strong and be focused... think for the life that you want... there so much and life is beautiful after all.

[Cocolilly]

Hi, I think that you need face to face support with someone who can help you see the positive things, sometimes when you at a low ebb, you can't see the things to be grateful for or see the beauty that is most definitely there in you because the negativity is so dark. One of the things about the law of attraction is that you need to have positive people in your life too, negative people in your life make it hard to see how the LOA works.

Surround yourself with the positive people on this site,but also remember those people who love and care for you who are around you who always make you smile, it is with these people your light will shine the brightest. Remember you are beautiful and the manifestation of source, universe, god (what ever you want to call the higher conciousness) in human form, you are here to live, love, feel and remember, and hopefully this is an experience that you can work through and past.

Stay beautiful and strong,

Cocolilly

[Linda]

First of all you need to remember that whatever she said does not make it right. It is only her opinion and nothing more. It only makes her a person who needs to judge. You need to stay away from people who are negative and bring you down. That is very unhealthy. Yes, it's not always easy, but sometimes you just have to do that. Your life is yours to live. Do what makes you happy and no one else. Try and think good thoughts. Anything to make you feel better. Take it minute by minute if that's all you can handle. And know people do care!!

[Sean M Ashley]

Yes, Definitely write down all that you have to be grateful for. maybe start with something small and build upon that until your belief system catches up. there may be some contrary beliefs deep in your
subconscious that you must replace. one thing i do is record all of my intentions including my intention to eliminate any limiting beliefs. I put it on my mp3 player and listen to it every night when i go bed. I fall asleep with it. this is a method I use to use years ago to memorize things i needed to learn I would listen to the script or paragraph for 3 or 4 days and then I would attempt to memorize it. when I did this I was always able to memorize in minutes. it works because when you hear it as you are falling asleep you are programing it directly to your Subconscious mind. Also when you begin to have doubts reflect on your intentions and visualize them and put yourself back into a place you want or intend to be. and last and most important take massive action. many times people will declare their intentions and do all the exercises and sit on the couch and wait for it to happen. I like to garden so this is what I like to say. If you see weeds starting to grow in your garden standing back and stating positive affirmations "there is no weeds, there is no weeds...." will not work the weeds will take your garden. Its not until you get down on your knees and start pulling weeds that something will begin to happen. Practice following impressions that come to you even if they don't make any sense. as you do this your ability to hear the promptings will increase and come more often and they will guide you to your intentions. I hope this helps. I am so grateful for this site and the ideas i get from my co-creators and also for the opportunity i have to share ideas that have worked for me. good luck with your intentions I know you'll be fine.

[Nicole]

write down all the things you have to be grateful for and see if that uplifts you. There is a great quote, and unfortunately i forget who said it, but the quote is ...change your thoughts, change your world.

After I had my baby, I had some weird thoughts. I wouldn't say I was postpartum but I had some difficulties. Whenever I had a weird thought, I immediately said trust, trust, trust until the thought went away. Eventually I moved to the word faith. Now, I have a guru and if I have negative thought I say his name. They have become less and less and I usually only have to say his name once. His name is Dattatreya Siva Baba. One of his teachings is that if you have a negative thought, look up. I think the act of looking up helps change the direction of the mind. I no longer have negative thoughts relating to my child and mothering but sometimes I doubt LOA or what I am trying to manifest in my life as it is taking a while and I have no patience, so I continue with his teaching and when doubt enters my mind, I continue to use the word faith to transform it.

Reaching out to this community is a step in the right direction. Don't under estimate your power to change things that aren't working for you. You are beautiful and have a lot to offer....focus on that!