I'm Back...1st Blog in Quite Some Time

[Laura Duksta]

Hello CoCreators!
I have an incredible share about my 1st day participating in the 30-Day Appreciation Challenge but 1st I want to "clean-up" that I haven't been here in awhile and that I haven't participated in this community in a powerful way. I have been looking at the experience of resisitence--one of the things I'm looking at is...is resistence "bad". Last week, I was resisting driving to meet a friend in Boca Raton (about 1/2 hour away for coffee). I finally had to call her to tell her I was running late--only to find out that she had forgotten about our meeting and was at least a 1/2 hour away herself.

Sometimes I wondered why in the world it took us so long to go from being self-published to a publisher--there were all types of "excuses", the war, the economy, issues between me and my business partner, etc, etc... Finally we sold it to the PERFECT publisher...turns out they had just started their Children's Imprint. Perhaps after all we were just just waiting for them.

Then I go to the scene from "What the Bleep" with the basketballs on the court--the infinite possibilities of how your life can play out---and I can see that having sold the book earlier to a different publisher woud have produced a different result--and I can't truly say if it would be better---it would be different.

So...back to this community...for me it does feel like an "out of integrity" (Landmark phrase for those of you who are familiar) to not be here participating. I say that it is my mission to travel the world, meet my brothers and sisters and spread the message of love. Now being a cofounder of this community totally is a fulfillment of my mission---but not connecting with you all here actually feels like an "out of integrity" with who I know myself to be. That being said I am thrilled with the new shift that has happened with Lilou and perhaps now my energy is being called back to be a more active participant.

I'm not going to judge or label my particpation thus far as good or bad---I am looking at what has me start things and not always follow through powerfully. Sometimes I think I am a spark that gets things started but then need to surround myself with a team to follow through...is that a cop out?? Not sure? I'm in that inquiry...

What I do know is that I'm grateful to be back here. I wrote the newsletter last night and committed to taking on the 30-Day Appreciation Challenge. I had such a great dream last night that brought the message of the newsletter and the Appreciation Challenge together...can't wait to share. Next blog post coming soon!!

[Sandra aka mytruestory85]

Yay Laura, glad to hear that you are back here!!! I must check out the 30-Day Appreciation Challenge - Group :)

Sandra