I have been trying to live in the moment, to stay positive, vibe with the whole LOA stuff, and it is going well. I do feel good, things that kind of upset me easily, are resolved quicker. I am not in horrible moods for days, more hours and I have been working hard to get the negative mood swings down to mins.
My thing now is that I feel that people think that I think that I am 'better than them'. I don't know how this is happening cause I have tried hard not to get into other peoples drama's. I try to distance myself from others negative thoughts just by not getting drawn into their conversation, but I do support them in the positive and express gratitude for them.
Just as I write this I am thinking what is my intention behind it all. Why am I doing this, does the internal intention mirror the external manifestation. Thinking objectively about it, yes. I want people to to see that I like myself, but that is being manifested is an arrogant love of self, not a humble, unassuming way that I thought that I was showing.
Back to the drawing board I think.
I just wana have friends that I can hang with and chat about this kind of stuff with and enjoy myself and not have to think they think anything of me, I can just be and not be judged.
I don't really know what day I am on now in the season, but what I do know is I have moved forward a lot, I have read loads and had much to consider. There are other things that I need to work on, one of them being stop thinking, and start living. Love myself like I want to be loved and be the best friend that I seek in others.
Oh, well that is the end of my rant. Soz if it sounds so self absorbed and woe is me, I am a bit clearer just writing this, but if anyone in co-creators land feels the same or have any tips in manifesting great friends or how I can become my own best friend, leave a comment.
Thanks for reading
Cocolilly
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