Downward Spiral and Help Needed (Day 82 Season 4)

[Chris]

I haven't written in a long while. It seems like it's been more than a season almost. I would have to say that between my day 23 and today my world has been filled with life, adventure, fun, happiness, learning, growth and generally a beautiful ride. Even just in the past week I have cut down on TV, have started to exercise more than I ever have in my life (I think last week was 5 days) and my relationship with my friends and girlfriend have been threw the roof.

Yesterday my boss fired who I considered my "guru" and my thoughts have been in a whirl ever since. One of the only reasons I was still here was due to this guru and now I don't know what to do. I've been thinking more positively since yesterday and I'm looking for the blessing in this all. A week ago I had said something I have never said before. "I love my job"

It feels destroyed but it wasn't the guru that made it that way was it? It was me all along.

Any love and positive thoughts that anyone can spare today would mean the world to me.

Thank you all

[Chris]

I just realized that I was using my guru as a crutch. Without him I am more uncomfortable which is a place I really like to be. I also just had a good convo with my boss and it seems that we just need a break from the gurus energy. I'm not sure what that means right now but I do know that this is a step forward and not back.

And Christine you are absolutly right. It is the job that I love. I think I am just worrying because Ken (the guru) seemed to be the only one that could keep my boss in check so he didn't flip out at us for no reason. This is my chance to step up and become the most uncomfortable that I can be. Growth can be scary. :-)

Thank you all for your support. <3

[createfate]

Hi Chris.... The next job you get will be BETTER than this one!!!! and Ditto to what Christine said "ALL things have hidden blessings that you cant see yet!!!

[Nicole]

trust in the saying...when one door closes, another opens. Look for the opportunities ahead!

[Nicole]

trust

[Christine]

Hang in there! Was it really your guru that made you love your job, or is it the job itself that you love? Maybe it means that you are now at a point where you don't need your guru and can now be the "guru" to someone else. Have faith that all things have hidden blessings in store, which I'm sure you'll discover soon! The universe is here to support us and provide everything we need as we follow our heart...