Day 84 S5~Shaky balancing to get to steady grounding:)

[Angela "Vibe"]

This season has been a shaky one..Dealing with my emotions and old habits has been on a daily basis..I have been going through several processes of elimination as I watch my emotions sway. Getting my mind out of my souls way point blank..
Grieving for the "old" me..
The old me that loved to see others happy and was sooo naive to the craziness around her.
The old me that settled for what ever I was told.
The old me who never asked questions.
The old me that thought she was unlovable..
The old me that was afraid to speak her mind.
The old me that cared about others opinions of her.
The old me that felt necessary to judge and go along with the crowd.
The old me that was blinded by the things going on around her.
The old insecure, needy me that wanted to just "fit in"
The old me that gets frustrated and anxiety sets in'
The old me that did not know how to put the past behind her
The old me that craved attention and did not care how it came..(leads to trouble most definitely!)
I could definitely go on and I may add more..Letting Go is important! I thought I had let go of everything, then realized I haven't let everything I need to go.
Finding love and power in the "new" me:)
Trying to maintain living by the 7 faces of Intention-creativity, kindness,love,beauty,abundance,expansive and staying receptive..Sometimes I get knocked back hence, shaky balance:) Destinguishing between ego and soul is becoming easier when remembering that I do have to check which I am projecting for myself..Realizing that I have been on this journey all my life for as long as I can remember till now. The way things happened in my life prepared me to take care of my son with lessons in loving care. Power in that statement for me:) I am working on developing a daily ritual:)Spiritual practice

Getting frustrated and angry a lot and I know it is me not handling all I am to do in a balanced state..Parenting is a BIG responsibility!! I can say that I am letting these moments happen and move on..Approaching the "castle"and ready to begin:) Rereading "Entering The Castle" by Caroline Myss

Gratitude List
1.My family
2.This site
3.silence
4.recognition
5.acceptance
6.forgiveness
7.patience
8.kindness
9.love
10.colors


Peace and Love

[Nadia]

so beautiful!