Day 8

[Jensine]

So its day 8 and I am really consciously choosing my thoughts these days which is nice.

I've never been a particularly social person. I always felt like I was way too different and didn't fit in and still have bouts of it sometimes. Anyway, yesterday I was having a really good friend come over who is like a total free spirit, fits in anywhere and everyone loves her. It was just going to be the two of us having a lovely chat down the beach......and then five minutes before she calls and says that she's bringing some friends, some I know, some I don't. That old familiar feeling started to creep in. "what if I get left out, don't know what to talk to them about, etc. etc." but as I'm so super aware at the mo I stopped myself immediately and asked what I did want to happen. I chose to have a lovely time, feel comfortable, relaxed etc..

So they turn up, about a million kids and a few adults and instantly I felt the difference from the prepaving and we had a lovely, lovely time and I felt totally comfortable the whole time and was mostly always in conversation with someone and when I didn't.........rather than the usual panic that would set it, I felt totally chilled.

I'm starting to find my place in the world. I realise that now. It feels good.

I want to say places like this have helped so much. As a child, knowing all this stuff but having no one or nowhere to turn was heartbreaking. Now, I have actual real people that know like I do, and even in my day to day life there are people I can talk to, I never could have imagined that as a child! Wow! Just realising how incredible that is!

I love it!

Thank you to each and every one of you!!!!!

So my intentions for today are:

To feel good. To eat well and feel full of energy. To get loads done in my pretty little garden (carrie photo's are coming.....promise!) For it to be a beautiful day. For money to flow to me in huge amounts. To be healthy, happy and extremely wealthy! To attract more and more wonderful friends. To be powerful in all areas of my life. To create a fantastic amazing day!

Hugs all

x

[Franka]

Good morning Jensine, you just described the way I feel so many times not "fitting in", don't know what to say, having the fear of not saying the "right" things etc. Luckily there are "events" (I call them so) like the one you had yesterday. I totally unterstand the reliefing, uplifting and power boosting feeling you must have right now. You're so lucky to spend such a chilling, literally relaxing afternoon. Congratulation! Wish, you are able to conserve it for a very long time. Everything good comes to you! Franka