Day 47(a couple days late) of my Season 2

[Sharee]

Wow! I'm almost at the half way point of my challenge. Time to reflect on how my intentions are shaping up. I'll start with the writing. My intention was to write, write, write on my book. So far, so good. I started Nanowrimo on the 1st of this month but I've pretty much given up on hitting my word count goal. I'm not good with the pressure of a deadline. I could never be a journalist! It's like the thought of having to write a specific piece, paralyzes me. But thanks to some new perspective from a life coaching session I received(thanks Julie), I'm writing everyday. That's good enough for me:) As for creating meaningful, fun, and fabulous friendships, I had a huge revelation after seeing Clarissa's vlog about actions. Although I said that I intended to socialize more, I have turned down every invitation that I have received this month. There were 2 parties, an offer to pick me and my kids up to go to the movies, and several meet ups that I have blown off. Seems I'm offering a major amount of resistance in this area with my actions. So I'm gonna look into this part of myself a little more. I did talk to a few of my neighbors this week, so that is a baby step. I know that a lot of this has to do with my weight. It's the reason that I tend to withdraw. I guess I'm afraid of being judged. Anyways, I'm working on it. I intend on starting my bellydance class the first week of December, so that should kick start my social life. The last goal was to manifest money towards my volunteer trip to Brazil in June. This one, I haven't even started on. I did get some more jewelry supplies this week. Maybe I'll post some things on etsy. Maybe. I just haven't focused on that one very much. But that's where I am in my challenge. I am the sum of my small steps. Every step counts. I look forward to see what the second half brings.

[Kate]

Tell us more about this trip to Brazil. I am glad you are really writing. I will be glad when nano is over. I really want to work on getting one of my books finished. I think that will be next years goal. Its so easy to let that slide.Have a good holiday.

Kate

[Clarissa Kelly]

Forgot to say, BIG HUG from me here in Oregon!! Can't wait to buy your book one day. ;)
Clarissa xx

[Clarissa Kelly]

Hey Sharee! I miss hearing your voice on the videos, but love that you take the time to write great blogs. I know you are getting near to a breakthrough of some kind, keep letting in more and more of what you want, take leaps of faith.

I know what you mean about socializing, I am at home full-time and I can get in a real rut of solitude. I write, read, take care of my son, and spend evenings chatting with my husband. But I miss being in the world. I miss interacting with people. My son goes to a school in a slightly snobby area, sometimes i feel judged by the "rich" moms who drop off their kids. I know it is all in my head though! They are all really nice and I love chatting about mom-stuff to them. Still, I need to explore the reasons I don't invite more REAL friends into my life--even though it is my intention this season! Think I'll write on that later in my journal.

I'd love to see what you make with your jewelery supplies, I adore cool jewelery! I intend to buy more of that sort of thing, I tend to dress "down" all of the time, even though I'd love to look more creative on the outside.

And weight, ugh, don't get me started! I lost like 30 pounds last year and was on a high (of course it was weight loss due to anxiety). Once I started eating normally agian the weight came right back. I had told myself I'd keep it off, but didn't make good choices. Right now I'm eating more fruit and veggies and making sure I have small dinners. Small things make a BIG difference. I intend to lose that 30 pounds again, but the right way this time.