Day 2 Season 2

[Ann-Marie]

I have been feeling horribly anxiose and fearful today. I distracted myself with busy work and tv and internet. I finally decided that this is the place to come!!!!!

So I decided that instead of ignoring my feelings i will ask them what they want. The response i got was that my body is so tired and wants to feel safe and amazingly the anxietly decreased. My emotions are talking bto me and I am so used to ignoring them that they must get very very loud to be heard :( how sad. No one likes to be ignored but I have been ignoring myself..

So Im laying in bed. i set my alarm and I am going to put on some nice meditations and let my body drift off if that is what it wants to do. i think that this is what happened last season!!! I had fears and anxiety and i am so afraid of being judged and acting like Im perfect that I did not want to come on here!!!But I am not perfect or I guess I am poerfect in my imperfection like we all are..

This is a huge part of my journey I know that now. I must face myself ..face my fears and bring them out into the light so that they can be heard. I feel better now having written this and just being here knowing that I am surrounded by such wonderful people.

Im going to go nap now and cry if I need to ..this happened last time. all these feelings coming up. Maybe I used all the negativity in my life as an excuse not to come here and deal with those feelings and let them out and accept support. Thats very, very hard for me to do. I must do it this time. I want to stop hiding and I can;t really think of a more supportive non judgemental place then this.

I am glad you are all here..

[Chris]

And we are glad you are here. That is what is so great about a community based on love and gratitude. You are always perfect!