Day 19 Season 4

[Mark]

Wow! P90X really kicked my butt today! I was so exhausted afterwards but I did it! I am almost done with my first week of training. I have been very diligent and loving it. It is hard but it's good! I feel like I am actually in control of something. There is so much going on that I have no control of. I mean I can manifest it and if we are on this sight we believe that everything that is put in front of us was manifested by us in some way. So for that reason we are in control. We are in control of everything. But what I mean mainly is that a lot of times we are working on faith and trust that if we continue to do something that something will change or come or appear. I have been doing this for a while now. And every once in a while we get a reminder that we are on the right track or the wrong one but it takes time. It takes time for us to send out our ships and have them return with the rewards we want. So with my work outs I feel like I have more control and can see instant results. I mean I have only been doing this for a week now (not even) but I can already feel a difference in my body and mind. I have way more energy. I feel better. I can see change in the mirror and on the scale. So I am in control of this and I am loving that. I know that I can choose to grab a Big Mac or a salad. I can have 6000 calories in a day or 2400. I have that choice. I can decide what I want to do and how I want to look and because of that very fact I am doing it. I am doing it because I wanted to feel like I have some control over something that I can see results and feel them right a way. This all may sound a little selfish. I may sound like a baby or a disbeliever in the system. Trust me! I know that I have riches coming my way. I know that The Party Animals are going on tour. I do believe this is my heart and soul. But since I have no real verification of that fact. I had to concentrate on something else for a while and that has been my health and my body. What I also really know is that there is a reason for this. There is a reason that I am getting my self in the best shape of my life. There is a reason I don't have to work on the tour right now so I have time to get my body in shape. I know that it's all in the Universal plan and I accept that. So I just go on my merry way and try to stay positive and try to keep my head up and try to work as hard as I can at staying present. This is the only time we have and I need to make the best of it. Loving life is what I am about and it's what I am doing. So I am going to leave you all with a Happy 4th of July wish. Take time to thank those that are fighting for your freedom. Whether you are American or not you can be grateful for all of those that protect you from the badness in the world. I hope you do! Peace out and take care and know that we all have a choice and we need to use it!