day 17

[peggy]

I am not so positive these last few days. For almost two weeks I have not been physically feeling so great. And then that affects my moods. It's a lazy sunday and I have been eating like crazy. I've been eating things that I otherwise dont' eat. I really want to do South Beach again. My will power and determination leaves much to be desired. I go on facebook quite a bit and found a quote from one of my friends; " Know what you want to do ,hold the thought firmly, and do every day what should be done, and every sunset will see you that much nearer your goal." That seems like a good thing to ponder. "Hold the thought firmly."

So, in light of that, I'm going to sort of, journal my daily "doing what I have to do" to reach my weight loss goal. I have to admit that when I am thinner, I feel so much better. I will be vulnerable and open with you, when I am thinner, I really, really am happier. I haven't' had much energy and this dry, deep, ithcy cough doesn't help either. I love to get up in the morings, go to the gym by 5:30, run a mile. The track is quiet and I feel almost like it's my personal track and it belongs to me. It's so peaceful as I run. My body does love to exercise...that's an affirmation that I learned from Louise Hay.

So, God, working through power of the universe....that's what I'm looking for. I am indeed blessed with a healthy, beautiful, loving family, a beautiful home, and actually pretty humble desires. What do I REALLY want other than the fantastic blessings that I already have??? To be thin....to stay thin....and to eat in such a healthy way not desiring the things that are gook....yep, gook.

So tomorrow I begin journalling on this site about my intentions....which are all over my vision board. It's quite early, but I'm gonna try getting to sleep early so that I can get up for the gym....

See you tomorrow.....