Day 14 Season 5

[Internationally Beautiful]

Today's Horoscope: Today is an excellent time to set some goals for yourself. Begin by setting one goal which is easily attainable. Getting used to routinely setting and accomplishing your objectives will aid you in reaching your most important aspirations.

"Today I factor in faith as an essential ingredient of my experience. As I put all of my faith in God, solutions will spontaneously emerge out of the problem, out of confusion, disorder, and chaos. The more secure I feel, I know I am on my path ...to freedom. Through the wisdom of faith, I will find my security." ~ Law of Detachment

Today's Goal:
1. Finish To Do List

I will only do one thing that will set me closer to my goal. The past few days has been nothing, but communication. Leon and I have been talking; not fighting, actually talking. We have been able to share how we feel about everything from the kids, to our relationship, money, about each other. Its been good and we now have a better understanding about our goals, dreams, desires, needs. :D

We are still planning for the move to Ga, but like always my fears have put us in a halt. Not in a bad way, but its a good thing. We just have to take this move slow because I just want everything to be perfect. ugh! Still working on the Law of Detachment. I realized with my talk with Leon that I wasn't satisfied with the job titles that were given me. I wanted more! Not only that the job titles that were given to me where just thrown on me without any spoken words. Good thing I'm a fast learner because I was able to catch on fast and quickly get things done. :D I also learned that I am still judging people. The Law of Detachment is allowing me to let people be who as they are. I am slowing learning to let go, have faith, and experience the great opportunities that are awaiting. :D Speaking of waiting... Since starting the 100 Day Challenge; I have learned that everything that has come into my life is for a reason and I deserve it. I have learned that if I can't obtain an item that I must be patient and allow God to align me so I can get that specific item. All the items on my want list may not have been manifested, but I am grateful for what I have in my life already. I take good care of the things I do have and I know I already have those items. I just have to be patient. :D

I listen to Hay House Radio and Caroline Myss was speaking about envy. It had me thinking, "Am I envious?" As I was meditating on the thought while listening to her, she spoke out and said "STOP! Why are you even giving those who don't have your best interest in heart your heart?" Why? You are only destroying yourself because you're seeking out their approval and so far you haven't received it. Tell them that you are seeking their approval and their actions and opinions haven't shown you what you are looking for out of them. You are envy of the relationship that someone else has with this person you are trying to get approval from." That's when I realized that I have been seeking for other people's approval, but why? This goes back to Louise Hay's Heal Your Life when I was a child. I felt abandoned, I was abused...

Just all of this has made me realized that even though I have moved on from the past; my past decisions from a year ago, even yesterday are still replaying itself so I can make the right decision so tomorrow will bring better events, people, experiences, etc. Now that I am more aware of my decisions, surroundings, experiences, emotions, and my spiritual being. I am not upset about replaying my experiences, but I finally understand why I am where I am in life. I understand how events, people, experiences come to play into my life. Caroline Myss states, "We all need to be more discriminating about whom we allow into the circle that influences our souls." Which is true! I have a lot of people in my life who influence my soul, negative and positive. I didn't know how to go about my relationships that are negative, but my horoscope for yesterday told me to not allow myself to be pulled in with the negative. I can guide those that are dealing with negative things, but I have to allow them to learn there own lessons. I can't do it for them. It was just another "aha" moment... I love those moments!


Entering The Castle: An Inner Path to God and Your Soul by Caroline Myss
The First Mansion:
When a situation becomes unreasonable and uncontrollable; chaos erupts. You, too, can be unreasonable and uncontrollable, so not only does chaos happen in your life, you also create chaos, sometimes inadvertently or deliberately. Ultimately, you create a chaos as a means of avoiding confrontation with Truth or God.

Gratitude:
1. food that I eat
2. my body
3. my wants that I have manifested
4. my needs
5. my soul
6. God