Day 10 Season One

[Candice]

I feel like I am doing so good. I am learning ao much and going through alot of positive much needed changes. I soent the weekend doing alot of self refelction. I shed some teras and did some meditations. I got a chance to spend some much needed time with myself. I watched the Move "Peacful Warrior" and something that the old man said to hos student stucj in my head all weekend. He told the young kid that he needed to "take out the trash"...the trash he was refering to was in his mind. I have been meditating on this all weekend, focusing on the things that trul bring me joy. I spent all morning cleaning and throwing away things in my apartment that I simpy did not need. I donated soem things to my sister. i thought to myself..."how could I have accumilated so many things that I did not need?" I guess with out even realizing I have a tendancy of holding onto things. This made me reflect on the many challenges in my life and I realized that I had not only been holding on to physical things that I did not need but this was a smaller part of a habit that I have had to holding on to physical, and mental things that I simply jusy did not need. After spending the afternoon cleaning and reflecting I went for a hike with my friend in the woods and got the opportunity for the first time in so many years to be exactly in the moment. It was poring raining and cold but it was the most beautifl day ever. The sound of the rain on my umbrella and the site of all the leaves falling....It was like I was alive...finally. It felt so good. I felt in that moment a great appreciation for life and that I could accomplish anything! On teh way home I stopped into a pastry shop called Truffles that is dowstairs in my apartment building. For the first time in my three years living here i brought a Truffle. I ate it slow and savored the chocolate. It was the most flavorful things I had ever tasted. Being in the moment for me in this one day made every experience so fullfilling! I wonder how mush of my life I missed by not being in the moment...but then I have to coem back and remember that regret is another way of being in the past. I will practive gratitude for all the riches that life has to offer. And what and experience life can be once you decide to "take out the trash"