Back to the basics

[Christine]

I'm back to meditating daily, after a time I can only liken to the Christmas rush here in our stores in America!

As I wrote on Terry's blog post, I've had to stop and come to a clear vision of what I've been doing, and regroup.
I've been so busy changing those limiting attitudes and beliefs (they really are difficult little buggers to move, aren't they?), I haven't been focusing as much time on God/Love's presence. Not as much time at all!
That to a mystic is pretty much spiritual suicide.

I really haven't been stopping and being attentive to the Presence, my Source, in the last couple of weeks.
I wasn't recharging my spiritual battery, I wasn't Connecting, I was running on fumes, starving myself ~ I was feeding off the afterglow, basically!

A banquet of crumbs
I started noticing that I was coming up with more fears and dreads and negative "what if's". I was feeling vulnerable, and feeling like I would not, ever, never, etc., get to the state of Connectedness and happiness and manifesting effortlessly! I was starting to feel more doubt and resistance.

That was my tip-off that I needed to get hold of myself, and get back to what fills me, fulfills me, keeps me happy,,,,, and why do I still need to re-learn this? It's so funny! I've had to keep re-learning what should be the foundational understanding in my life, by this time!
I've been at this for years, I've always found and re-found how important it is for me to be Connected~ it was the only way I had any kind of happiness at all in me, I've had so many resistant beliefs in key areas of my life!

(That's good to note here: a person can be happy, and yet still have areas of resistance and doubt that keep them deprived of many of the lovely things life has to offer.)

Welcome back, confidence!
With my meditation/prayer practice (japa meditation is my present fave) back in place, I'm home again, safe and secure and growing into my potential with reviving confidence!
Simple as that.