Slow Down Baby!!! Total Randomness and the Gift of Life

[Bethany]

I haven't blogged in a while, partially due to the craziness of life--term paper writing and end of quarter and no sleep to rushing into surgery to drugged into recovery during my spring break which I slept and ached through to rushing into a new term overloaded with courses, deadlines, and an upcoming conference I am presenting my research at this weekend. Whew! I feel as though I have just been pushed through life during the past three weeks. It's already my day 31?!?! Wow! And then it hit me today--the universe keeps shouting at me: SLOW DOWN BABY! You are moving too damn fast Bethany.

Once I got that message into my body, things started lining up. I am feeling better bit by bit. Wealth is flowing in bit by bit. Friends are calling. Work is getting done bit by bit. Sure enough life isn't going to slow down for me, but I need to take the time I need to make the most of my days and give the best I can give each day.

I had a couple of hard days. And I know that is because I was focusing on what I had done to create whatever negative circumstances that had come my way. As soon as I surrendered all my problems to shakti, a lightness filled my heart chakra. I knew whatever had happened to pave a different path just for me and that path is going to be just fine. Because it will be unique to me. And I will have the strength required to navigate it successfully.

So that is my message to anyone who has had troubles lately. Surrender. Let go. And lightness will come and your path will show itself to you.

And time for total randomness: When I joined ning a month ago, my homepage was jacked up because of the page format I'd chosen and the site did not allow me to go in and change my page due to the format issue. Randomly today, I was able to change the page. Again, another example of surrender...even a small one.

I want to personally thank everyone for all the kind thoughts and get well wishes sent to me before and during my surgery and during my recovery and healing. I know so much good energy sped my healing along. A friend of a friend who was the same age as myself had the same surgery the same day I did. Sadly, even though this was a routine gall bladder removal surgery, this person died. I cannot even express how this affected me and how more cognizant it made me of my precious life. I sent blessings to that person's family and friends and to aid them in their grieving.