How nice

[Sydney]

to put my first blog posts up and get comments -- ideas, encouragement! THANK YOU!

Well, yesterday I DID rest awhile, then I somehow got about 70 % of my work done, which was a huge chunk, though I did eat rice crackers (carbs) and yoghurt covered rasins (sugar) all the way through it. At least it wasn't chocolate and potato chips. In the words of John Lennon, "Whatever gets you through the night, it's alright, it's alright!"

I had to get through that work and I made a choice. Carb chomping helped me with the anxiety about getting it done. I had a sugar headache and was sleepy when my husband came home but I felt very relieved, so what's a girl to do? I dozed for about 20 minutes, then got up and made him a nice dinner for him (I wasn't hungry) and instead of eating with him anyway, I sat with him and ate later when I was... and I had just some veggie soup I'd made -- so maybe I offset things a little.

Once my little carb coma was behind me, I ended up spending 2 hours on my body -- I have been told by my physical therapist that I have to do a radical plan to correct some things and make time to devote 2-3 hours a day to this work. I did a short meditation (working on getting out of head and into body, and awareness in general), then did some writing on it, then did 25 minutes on the treadmill, then did a bunch of my prescribed stretches and nerve flossing.

And then I had a conversation about politics with my husband. We don't have many real conversations, so this was great.

So I did something good in the areas of:
Volunteer/Animals
Student/spirituality
Body
and Wife

Woo hoo, now for today. I am just as tired, just as tempted to avoid my homework. I just don't understand that. I'm a grown up, have always run my own business. When I get down to it, I do it fine. WHAT IS THE GAP?

[carla k.]

The lump that Connie was describing and THE GAP that you are talking about, isn't that the same thing?

[carla k.]

Costarica ~ not Cosatrica .... it's early morning here .... sorry!

[carla k.]

First of all, congrats Sidney!

What is the Gap? A question that I asked myself alot. If you read Connie's post, she talks about that even though she has this great job, and that she is greatful, she still has this big lump in her throat ~ basically, she's not 100% happy with the situation. She goes on to admit that her heart is in Cosatrica, and that is where she wants to be.

When you were running your own business, were you where you wanted to be? Did you have that lump in your throat?Are you doing what you wnat to be doing at this moment?

Connie continues by explaining how, as a a yogi, she needs to accept that, where she's at now is part of the process ...but she is working towards where she wants to be.