My day 8 - Reaching out to others

[Kim]

I've skipped several days since starting on October 1st, but I'm not beating myself up about it. I work on my Challenge when it works. No sense getting frustrated or angry...that all sort of defeats the purpose of growth, intentions, accepting myself, etc. So...off I go on Day 8.

I had lunch with someone today - I've never spent any amount of time with her one-on-one, but she invited me so I went. She is someone I used to go to church with, I've been to a Pampered Chef party, bunco..things like that. It was a very enjoyable lunch. We touched on many topics...kids, husbands, school, etc. And we got on the subject of God and church. I grew up as a Lutheran until I was almost 40 years old. As a family we began attending a sort of "today" Christian church, with no rituals or traditions. You show up in jeans if you want, hear the message, eat some donuts and socialize with the crowd. It was an enjoyable time. Then about two years ago, quite suddently, I began questioning EVERYTHING...everything I was taught, everything I believed, traditions, the Bible, church, Christianity...everything. So I just decided to stop going to church and just enjoy being. I began reading metaphysical type books, got into Abraham-Hicks, and more. I became fascinated with the idea of God being energy, and not really a white bearded man sitting on a heavenly throne. I'm still trying to work out the whole Jesus thing and what he truly intended to share with us human beings. But I'm still working it out in my heart and head. I have a feeling I may never figure it out and will just have to go with what my gut tells me.

I feel a strong pull to go back to church. Not sure why and it's probably not my job to question it. I do miss the social interaction of the people. I would like a greater understanding of the bible, but not necessarily from a Christian perspective if that makes any sense. I'd love to get a group of metaphysical people and Christians together in one room and discuss the bible. I think it would be a fascinating interaction. There is so much juicy stuff to ponder.

I could literally ramble on and on about where I am right now but the duty of picking up my daughter from school is a looming deadline. I'm really still trying to wrap my head around christianity and where I am right now. I believe so strongly in the Law of Attraction, and yet sometimes I feel like the Abe-Hicks way is such a lonely, isolated way of being. As if just doing what "feels good" isn't necessarily for the good of the whole. Hmmmm....good thing I don't have to figure this all out today or I'd go crazy.

In the meantime, I'm incredibly grateful for:
Lunch today
Lunch with mom yesterday
My husband's wonderful job and steady income
My clean house
That the wind has stopped!
My haircut appointment tomorrow
The joy of watching Dancing with the Stars
....and so much more!

Peace.
Kim