NEVER LAND I had a dream about you last night, So tonight I'm in a daze. I pulled a chair up on the…

[Joshua Peterson]

NEVER LAND

I had a dream about you last night,
So tonight I'm in a daze.
I pulled a chair up on the balcony
And the sky was where I gazed.
And I considered all our history
And where we ended up;
How I tried to give my all to you
But it was not enough.

I tried to put on armor that was too damn big.
And I tried to carry a sword that was heavy
I made a fool of you with everything I did
But in the end, I did what made me happy.

As I sat there I thought all about my friends.
How none of them even bother with a call
The minute one of them picks up a new boyfriend
It's like I don't exist at all.
And sometimes I appreciate that
I need my time alone;
But when the problems come to call
I'm thrown into a storm.

I did my best to help them all clean up their mess
And I probably used much too small a broom.
But I'm just as fragile, if not more, than any of the rest
In the end, I felt I was an emotional storage room.

By the time slumber came, I was wrong,
I was beating myself for what I'd done.
Picking through memories with tongs,
And pretending I was having fun.
I tried "if someone else can love,
Then I can be loved, too"
But I felt the happiest memories
Were the ones when I left you.

I've done my job to find direction in my life
And drowning myself will probably never end.
But If everyone wants to be a form of hype,
In the end, It won't ruin what I've planned.

So my best friend doesn't call me when he gets a new boyfriend.
And the people I know have never lent a helping hand.
If everyone decided tomorrow they're jumping off a building...
I would never land.