Day 69 - still hanging in there

[Tabitha]

I snapped this pic of the sun shining through the weeping cherry tree in the front garden in the late afternoon. I feel a bit like those branches just hanging there whether they like it or not, kept alive by the greater tree, but not having the freedom to go off on their own. I've been lacking energy and enthusiasm for a few months now, I have quite a few plans on the boil now, but no actual success to speak of yet - no money in the bank and no interesting, intelligent, affectionate lover. In fact my income is now $50 a week LESS than it was when I began this 100 days, and my expenses are about to go UP by $100 per week! I find it hard to keep up my enthusiasm whilst the seeds I planted are still buried under ground out of sight, and I'm not even sure if they are dead or alive. Do I keep watering these ones, or just go and plant some new seeds in the hope that that will poke their heads above ground sooner than the first lot? I feel like once I get just the TINIEST sign that my plans are coming to fruition, that will give me the motivation I need to finish the job! I keep looking at the people in my life and being annoyed at what pessimists they are, but I suppose that only reflects the fact that I myself am a pessimist - in denial! I'm not sure how I'm STILL managing to do this despite the positive stuff I surround myself with on a daily basis (books, DVDs, prayer, seminars, positive websites) but I know I DEFINITELY need to get some positive new friends in my life. Whilst you guys on here are fantastic, I need Melbourne friends that I can go have coffee and go to the movies with, do face to face stuff with! Drink bottles of wine and chat until the wee hours with. Relationships are the key to money - that's what I learned at PSI. Jila (energy healer & NLP practitioner) says that the Universe has loving ways of delivering what we need to us, instead of us having to do things we hate because we think that is the only way we will get what we want in the end. I have had two tiny signs recently that a new car is on it's way to me, but maybe they were just silly little co-incidences...how do I tell? I REALLY need to turn the volume on my intuition RIGHT UP, 'cause I don't think I've ever really heard it before...louder intuition and beautiful new local friends, that is what I ask of you now, Universe! Thanking you in advance :-)

[Ialsohaveadream]

This to shall pass... The branches n the tree are happy to be as they are and so should you! Try to enjoy what you have and you will get more of it, you might have lost money during the challenge because you thought more scary-thoughts about money. Just relax and enjoy, meditate. That is what I am doing, I am enjoying. And I've been there not too long ago, o I can relate to what you are feeling. New friends will come when you can see that you already have friends and that you might need to call them hehe or maybe enjoy talking to strangers a little more. I dont know at all how it is for you, but try something and be happy anyway! You are worth happiness, all the time!!

Love

[Belle]

Hey Tabitha,
if only i was in melbourne or you in sydney, youre plans sound fantastic! Drinking wine, watching movies...chatting with like minded souls. heaven!
Please hang in there, it gets better. I am sure of this. look at how the days are getting longer, that always makes me happy - doesnt take much! lol.
Hopefully we can hang out next sunday, if youre still around. let me know!!
B.x

[Dianne Sharma-Winter]

where are you kare? I have to let you know that yours is the first page i check when i eventually get on line. How are you and whats up?

[Dianne Sharma-Winter]

Hello gorgeousness
hang in there my friend, its only when the squeeze goes on that we get the real juice. Also there is something in the clearing out of stuff before welcoming new change in. I hear what yur saying about needing to be around like minded people though.... Kia kaha kia maia kia manawanui e hoa