Season one Day Twenty-One--Do you really BELIEVE?

[dreamer]

The third week of my challenge has been a good one. My practices feel good, and I feel like there are shifts taking place within me. While these shifts may feel uncomfortable at times, I think they are very good for me. This week, I have been doing some deep cleaning around the house, and in looking back, I think it may be a reflection of the deep cleaning going on in my mind.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. About my wants, desires, dreams, and what is keeping me from pursuing some of them. My friend Cindy and I have talked about how this challenge has stirred things up for both of us, making us think about changes beyond this challenge. In some cases, potentially huge changes, which has made us both feel a bit unsettled.

This week, as I’ve read sections of The Law of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks, it seems like I kept opening it to passages that reflected whatever question was on my mind. (Kind of eerie, but very cool.) Perhaps the most significant instance was a section about figuring out what you want. I have said, more than once over the past couple of years, that I just don’t know what I want. However, they suggest that most people are not having such a hard time deciding what they want as much as they do not believe they can receive what they want. I thought about that, and it may be true, but another idea came to mind. I think I might actually be afraid that I CAN have what I want. I obviously have a bit of work to do in that area. LOL!

So, over the past week, I’ve been revisiting forgotten and/or discarded dreams. The thing is, I have been familiar with the Law of Attraction for some time now. In fact, I’ve had some big evidence that it works over the last few years. For example, about 3 years ago, I set an intention to have a brand new car. I wrote down all of the features I wanted and chose the interior and exterior colors. And then, in fun, I wrote down that I wanted it for free. I chuckled at myself, and set it aside. Two or three times, over the course of several months, I would go to the automaker’s website, and “build” my car. I just had fun with it. About ten to twelve months later, I got that exact car. For free!

But would you like more evidence of the LOA in action? Here’s the funny thing: After my initial delight over receiving the car, I then started feeling guilty. This was my first big deliberate material manifestation, and I felt a bit unworthy. And the LOA went to work on that thought. I was driving it with a temporary registration, as I couldn’t officially register it until the title arrived from out-of-state. The car dealer accidentally switched my title with someone else’s and it took a couple weeks to straighten out the issue and get the title to me. My temporary registration expired, and I had to park my new car, and drive my old one until the title arrived. I realized that me having a new car didn’t mean that someone else would starve or do without some basic necessity. There is enough abundance for everyone, I told myself, and I then let go of my guilt. Once I did that, the title arrived pretty quickly, and I was able to register my new car and begin driving it again.

I certainly thought I believed that the LOA worked absolutely. However, over the past week, I now think that perhaps I wanted to believe it, but wasn’t truly believing it. Maybe I was wishing or hoping. Now, as I come to believe it more deeply, I can see the difference. And that has made me a bit apprehensive. If we get out of our own way, we are UNSTOPPABLE. And that made me think of responsibility. To steal a quote, “With great power, comes great responsibility.” I see more clearly than ever, the difference between wanting something, and absolutely deciding I will have something.

This challenge has taken me to a new place, in believing. And now, making some deliberate decisions seems even more important. I’ve been manifesting by default over the last couple of years entirely too much. This is all still stirring around in my brain, so I’m not sure where I’m going with it, but I thought I’d throw it out there, in case some of you are going through, or have gone through this experience. I would love to hear your thoughts or, better yet, your stories.

I have more to post, but I think I’ll stop here for now. There has been so much going on in the last seven days, that it is hard to keep a blog post at a reasonable length. If you’ve made it this far, thank you for that.

Dreamer

[Cindy]

Hey girl! Great blog post. It's got me to thinking some more -- and I'd have sworn that more thinking was the last thing I needed right now. It's been a rough couple of days, but things seem to be getting lighter for me. I haven't figured out what to do with the physical pain, but I've tried not resisting it so much, and I think that's helped.

I have my ATC class coming up in a little less than a month, and I'm trying to be UNSTOPPABLE where that class is concerned. I'm trying to visualize a full class, and it going well, and everyone making lots of cool ATCs. I haven't taught in a while, and am really looking forward to the experience. If you figure the getting out of our own way thing out, please enlighten me!

Take care, my friend!

[Zara]

P.S. How did you get the car for free? Did you win it? You shouldn't of felt guilty you deserve it:)

[Zara]

Wow what a wonderful LoA story! Thats amazing getting a car for free! I should try that one:)