Conflict? I don't much like. I am the type of person who is a people pleaser and will go above and beyond to steer clear of confrontation. Sticking my head under the blankets till it goes away has always been the way I dealt with it in the past. This October I was placed in the middle of something I have a difficult time with - judgement.
Even as a child I had a difficult time accepting gifts, whether for my birthday, a special surprise or Christmas. It wasn't that I didn't appreciate the gifts, but instead that I loved giving even more and seeing that special someone's eyes light up. So it would come as no surprise that the gift of psychic mediumship was squashed and hidden away, thought of as a curse since it didn't follow the teachings I was being shown growing up. That was until I realized as I grew that I was really giving while I was using it - a healthy balance, I do believe, as long as the person receiving it has open arms to accept.
I was asked to be a guest on a local radio show and even though I accepted I knew that it was trouble and told the Producer that I was apprehensive. It wasn't the chatting because normally I can communicate with a tree stump and feel that it went over well. But I knew that they were going to try and make me look like a clown. That evening I told my husband that I probably shouldn't do the show and I should cancel and yet something was telling me to put myself in the middle of the fire. It wasn't my way, I kept saying. Couldn't I just keep doing what I was doing? I had great clients, a supportive family and was content inside of my bubble. But I still could feel this push to do the show.
The morning came and I turned on the radio show (not a show I typically listened to and ironically the week before commented to my husband that I thought they were very disrespectful to guests - wow would I chew on those words later on) and heard the introductions. The producer called me and the DJs began to question me as if I were on trial. It was the longest 10 minutes of my life, but when I came out of our home office, I was met with a smile from my husband and a kiss. However, it wasn't over. The producer asked me if I could come back and give the DJs a reading. Again, I knew that it wasn't a good idea, but my Guides nudged me to do it - not to make them believe, mind you, but to not retreat; I had nothing to hide. The producer called me back and I began to bring through several spirits for the DJs. In the end, I was met with skepticism, no validations and an accusation that I 'Googled' them. I didn't.
I should have been shaken and upset. Afterall, I am the people pleasure and I wanted to give my best. But it was then that I realized that you have to balance the giving and receiving. They weren't willing to receive the messages. The same goes for other instances in life, whether a relationship that you are really into and the other isn't and turns you down or a job that you really want and they don't want you. You can't spend your time festering in the negative of it, but have to move on and find a vibration to where people are receptive to receiving your love/gift/skills, etc. Shake it off.
And it happened again with a news report that spotlighted the paranormal. I had been interviewed and they used a piece of my interview and then got the other side, that being a minister who informed them that although he believed that I was communicating with the dead, we just shouldn't go there. For a brief moment I felt like that 5 year old again in Sunday School when I was told that anybody who saw spirits were evil. My heart crumbled at the judgement. He didn't know me. He didn't know my story. What if someone had told Christopher Columbus that they knew that there was land, but not to mess with it? Or the astronauts that there were other planets, but not to mess with it? Or doctors that there was cancer, but not to mes with it? And how dare he even say that statement when I don't necessarily go looking for it, but it finds me in the middle of the night. It finds me. And then I heard - Shake it off. Physically. I jumped up and down, turned on some 80s music and sang and danced it off.
It is easy to get caught in the anger, but what purpose does it serve but push you down into a low vibration where bottom feeders can gnaw. So when you are having a bad day, feel as if you are being judged, or been done wrong, do what I do - SHAKE IT OFF!
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