A study in colour that I took with my Nokia in a laneway in Melbourne. I LOVE this pic!

Hey Beautiful People!
I've been out there in the big bad world getting beaten up by some people whon call themselves "life coaches" and "transformation specialists" and they have been speaking to me in a way that I find quite rude and sarcastic.Perhaps I am just a wuss, but anyway, they made me remember what an awesome support team I had on here, and then I was amazed that I haven't thought about this site in so long, but anyway. That's how life is, I suppose! It flows in cycles and yad yada anyway. I think my season 3 lasted for exactly one post, so I am starting again, but this time instead of overwhelming myself with a bunch of pie in the sky goals that I know I'm not going to achieve anyway, this time I am only shooting for one thing. It's a biggie, though! Are you ready?
TO FIND MY PASSION TO FIND MY PASSION TO FIND MY PASSION I WILL IDENTIFY MY PASSION!!!
I have to face facts. I am 35 years old. I am single and I don't want to be. I have just started a new job 2 weeks ago, and it is boring me senseless already! I am addicted to the hope that self-help books sell, but despite reading about 846 983 of them in the last few years (give or take a few!), I haven't really changed one thing about my life - certainly not my income! I have always regretted not having a career. My income has not changed in the last 4 years, whilst the cost of living in Australia has increased substantially in that time - in other words, I've been going backwards fast for the last few years! Ouch! I do not know what my passion is, because I have never really had the money to experience all the things I think that I might love, because they all cost a lot of money :-( Every month that passes me by in my apathetic, passionless state kills me just a little bit more. Makes me just that litle bit more cynical and hard of heart. Just a little more hopeless and feeling like a total loser, who somehow missed life's boat, while other people are sailing off into the beautiful blue sky on their luxurious super-yachts. Rather than desiring to be like them, I begin to hate them. I think I have begun to hate success because it has hidden for me for so long. So of course, I can NEVER allow myself to be successful now, because who would ever let themselves be the thing that they hate and resent?
So, how can I learn to un-hate th thing that I REALLY, REALLY want? How can I find what it is that I REALLY, REALLY want to spend my life doing? Well, that is what this next season of mine is going to be about. I hope you can join me again on this one, as I look forward to catching up on all of your journeys too!!
Thanks again, Lilou, you rock!!!
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