Rambling things in my mind. Indecisiveness.

[Iris Fitzgerald]

Okay, let me get this out. I really like to blog. But I sometimes wonder what to blog about. This morning I wrote down on my notepad. "Waiting for others to affirm or approve of you is a "bogus" way to live. Now I don't even know if "bogus is a word. Here is the definition of Counterfeit or fake; not genuine: bogus money; bogus tasks. [From obsolete bogus , a device for making counterfeit money.] bogus [boh-guss]. Adjective . Well this is me. Even as I type I don't want to offend or write the wrong thing or reveal too much information about what is truly happening in my brain cells. If I honestly would allow my actions to truly believe I am the "Master or Misses of my universe. Truly or really, really believe it. I may start living on the brink of fantastic results.
Another example is blogging in the 3 person. Where I am generalizing about others, as if I am an expert on anything. How, contradictory. Is that a word. Contradictory. or contradiction.
So, if I were to live a geniune life without the thought of being approve or affirm that what I choose to do with my life is okay. Can you imagine this. You, Me or I want to do something a specific goal. Now the mind starts playing games of worth, being a worthy goal to achieve. or the mind wonders how the world would react if you ever achieve the goal. So the goal becomes stagnate because of the indecisiveness in decision making, inaction, procrastination. The goal becomes delayed.

Examples where we do things because it is acceptable behavior.
But to do something that we "believe is beyond "Our" Reach, it stays out there beyond our reach.

Notation. Everyone, We Or I must believe and be definite that the goal is not beyond our reach, but attainable.

Okay. done.

[Vanja]

I believe we are all here on CCOR for the same reason: We are commited to change ourselves, our lives, our future for the better in order to live our perfect life. We all struggle. I am new here and had so many fears whan starting and still do. My english is not perfect (everybody will notice all my mistakes), I am not doing this the wright way (what IS the wright way?), my goals are silly,... But my confidence is rising as I follow the CCOR, read Blogs, watch videos. And you too make a difference with your thoughts and inspire others.

It is hard to talk about things we are not proud of. Writing in the 3rd person we make distance like if it doesn`t regard us.

[Iris Fitzgerald]

Hi Stephanie, Thanks for letting me know this. You are right, a blog should be something we just write about our feelings. Girl, if I could just write what I feel I will feel the better for it. I am holding stuff inside that just makes me what to say "Puke"....Just something that would make others puke also. But yet it remains inside. I felt that just by typing the word "Puke" was offensive. LOL.

Early in life, I learned that if you say what people want to hear, you can get anything in life. It works, but it only gets others what they want and now I feel lost, because it is hard to say what I want.

Have a great day and Happy Blogging. I will look forward to reading yours.

[Stephanie]

Hey Iris,
when I write my blog, i just write - i don't think about style or if the word is real or how i'm coming across. it's your thoughts and your experience ... the change and manifestation is for you so it doesn't matter what others would think.
thanks for the comment about 'beyond our reach'. i didn't realise it until i read your note but i think i've been guilty of doing that - striving for what is (that i believe) beyond my reach and so it continues to be beyond my reach and i continue to strive.