S1 Day 4

[Susan]

Hi all,

So, I think I am finally getting the hang of this whole thing. I think it's more a question of repeat, repeat, repeat to myself about what I want, in a positive way. I wrote in another blog that I felt a bit like a fraud because I was writing down intentions that I couldn't stand 100% behind. Well I also felt like a fraud because it was the possibility of having no job that pushed me to really start this journey with you. I did it out of fear I guess.

In any case, I wanted to share with all of you what I think is a manifestation. I had written that I wanted to have more money in my life and yesterday, my mother hands me $20 from selling my roller blades. We had put up a sign in the grocery store a year ago and never got a single call. But about a week ago, we put up another one and yesterday someone called...on the same day that I put it writing. I know it's $20, nothing to get too excited about, but it seems significant to me.

So, off to finish my work day and then to work on my vision board tonight. I'm having trouble finding pictures of the things I want to put on it, but I might just print off clip-art pictures for now.

Until later...

Susan

[Susan]

Thanks Rachel...just the kick in the pants I needed. I am doubting...you're right...I know that I don't need to have all my intentions down in stone from day 1...if I waited for that, I would never begin. When I read the attitudes of co-creators, it almost made me cry. These are things we should all want for ourselves anyway, right? "I inspire others, I am worthy, I shine". It's going to take me a little while to believe those things about myself and that I deserve them. I for sure believe in the power of positive thinking because only good things come when you're positive. But I am having a little trouble believing that I will get the things I desire....I am still stuck at the how part of it...even though I know in my head that it isn't for me to wonder how, just to trust that it will happen. I feel like I am directing my intentions based on what I know is possible, and not what is impossible. Does that make sense? And the whole reason I wanted to do this challenge is because I want to believe in the things that I currently think are impossible.

So thanks for the comment...I needed that.

Susan