day 4 Season 1

[Bronwen]

Well I am moving forward in my quest for happiness and inner love and self esteem.

I have accepted that there are issues I need to address and I have started on the slow and long path to fulfilling my wishes.

I am very tired today having been to the special crisis recovery unit which manifested from my Day 2 weird experience.

I have been with an occupational therapist who is a lovely lady. I unearthed a lot of past unresolved grief in an hour long conversation with her and spent the rest of the afternoon painting quietly and crying!

I know I have to go through a period of grieving and opening up so that I can really heal and be happy.

The special person is being very kind to me. My sister is coming to stay with me for the weekend for the first time since I can remember and we are going to be kind to ourselves - go for chai lattes and the cinema and have a relaxing weekend.

I return to crisis unit on Monday. It is a nice place with an art room and a music room and a kitchen where we can help ourselves to wholesome snacks. I like going there as I have been lonely living alone despite having a nice group of friends who I see a few times a week.

I have contacted the Director of the festival and explained I have been ill and need to take a back seat but I said I would like to go to the crew camp next month. I will wait to see how he responds to this news.

I feel quite sad and down after today but there is a glimmer of positivity and a confidence that this process is essential in reaching my goal by 22nd July!

I am grateful for the kindness and support that has been shown to me by the special person, my auntie, my sister, and a few of my good friends. I am also grateful to Flo a cocreator who commented on my profile yesterday. It was so moving and painful but it made me realise how lucky I am to still be here and to have avoided causing pain to others.

I am a sensitive person with great empathy and love and I deserve to be happy.

Lots of love

Bronwen xxx

[Angela "Vibe"]

Welcome:) I too am a sensitive person with great empathy and passion and I deserve to be happy!! I look forward to learning more about your journey.Peace and Love..