So many things have changed

[OpeningLotus]

At first I hated it, with such a passion I was like a volcano erupting with anger several times daily and everytime I opened my eyes the tears would flow. Why did this happen to me? Thats my whole life gone! I now realise its only the begining and its what I needed to progress in my life.
Before he left me I spent my daying thinking only about him and making him happy and what I could do for him. I got little return in the last couple of months and to be frank I cried more with him than with him. He was my emotion crutch holding me up and at night if I was without him I'd curl up in a ball in my bed like a puppy whos owners had gone on holiday to the south of spain for several weeks.
I can remember who i used to dash out of college to get home to cook his dinner when I should of been socialising with friends, I didnt even see the many ways aswell as that he was holding me back until a couple weeks ago.
Now I'm looking forward without looking back so much, this year I'm turning into a woman and a strong one at that.
I'm volunteering in Africa for a month and leaving home to go to university in Portsmouth for four years to become a pharmacist.
I do miss having someone to hold and someone to love but I know that I'll get that again with someone more suited to me and who knows what matters to me. I guess its very very true. When god closes a god, somehow he opens a window. (yes, yes I was subjected to the sound of music countless times growing up)
Love openinglotus xoxoxoxox

[Deborah Tudor]

Compartmentalize your energies a bit so you can laser in your focus and get under your belt some things that must happen FIRST before the next happening can catapultes you into your arena of bliss..... in other words, this is a time of preparation, not dissipation.

[April]

I am so happy you are making your first steps!! That is so great that you are traveling. You will have so many confirmations each day,week and month that you did the right thing by looking at the positive. Don't seek the negative out in your past relationship what was done is done. Let's not attract that again. Begin to think of what you do want in a relationship. Keep your heart and mind open to anyone. It usually comes when you least expect it. You are blossoming into a beautiful woman, one that needed to grow again to manifest someone who will truly love you and what you have to offer. Don't sell yourself short. Life is to short. Use your service, compassion and time for things and those you love. Not for someone or something that will suck your lifeforce from you. You are young!! Have fun. Live your life. Make that dream/vision board and travel, meet tons of people, always intend for something bigger than what you are thinking of now. Don't stop!! Be bigger than life because YOU CAN BE!!!
Lots of love to you
April

[Sandra aka mytruestory85]

Hi there, glad to hear that you are doing well now. You will meet someone else when the time is right, just let it happen and it will :)

All the best!