Tonight, something uncomfortable happened at rehearsal for the play I'm in. I had an interaction with a fellow Black actor that had innapropriate racial undertones, which has always been a touchy subject for me, being half-black, half-navajo and raised in a white environment. It bugged and hurt the hell out of me and unfortunately occurred at the beginning of the evening. I took the actor aside and told him how what he had said, no matter how innocently he meant it, hurt my feelings and was a so…
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Added by Kahlil on July 2, 2009 at 1:37am —
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Today seems like it's going to be a rough day not to complain or hold grudges.
Yesterday I asked a co-worker to bring me some work for today. This work concerns sponges, which need to expand overnight.
At first I asked him, he said 'sure' and didn't bring them.
So, then I called him to remind him, he said 'okay' and didn't bring it and by then it was too late in the day.
So today my line of workers have seemingly little sponge work waiting for them when they get to work in 40 minutes and this s…
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Added by Kahlil on June 17, 2009 at 9:21am —
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I complained several times today. I complained about co-workers to another co-worker and I complained about my day to whoever would listen.
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Added by Kahlil on June 9, 2009 at 9:01am —
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Tonight I'm going to a concert with a friend of mine. The dynamic of wanting it to become more often factors into my life. By becoming more, I mean 'this, right here, is not enough'. Also, I'm nervous. It's a concert and people will be dancing around, which I usually don't feel comfortable doing in this environment. Also, I'm nervous. I think more than I feel sometimes and I THINK A LOT, often about the bad stuff that may happen. I'm often paranoid and neurotic. So (drum roll please) TONIGHT AND…
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Added by Kahlil on June 1, 2009 at 8:08pm —
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1. to express dissatisfaction, pain, uneasiness, censure, resentment, or grief; find fault: He complained constantly about the noise in the corridor.
Trying to remember if I complained today at work. I think I complained to a co-worker about another co-worker. Other than that. . . . .
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Added by Kahlil on May 26, 2009 at 7:31pm —
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100 days without complaining, eh?
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Added by Kahlil on May 25, 2009 at 12:06pm —
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Shoot. Missed '100'. Tonight I have a rehearsal for 'The Grapes of Wrath' and I'm nervous so. . .
I am enjoying and being inspired by this evenings rehearsal and all rehearsals and performances to come.
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Added by Kahlil on April 22, 2009 at 7:12pm —
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I have a regimen for the run of a show (rehearsal/performances) including no dairy, no coffee, amazing amounts of vitamins amazing amounts of water and yoga. So. . .
I am consciously maintaining my transforming performance regimen throughout the run of this and future productions
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Added by Kahlil on April 8, 2009 at 6:50pm —
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Re: my upcoming rehearsal process for and performances of 'The Grapes of Wrath' at Citrus College and beyond.
I feel worthy of talking to 'them' (fellow actors/ creative team/ etc. . .)
I have major business being there.
I am comfortable and knowledgeable of my own history.
I am thinking/ figuring out this stuff out (rehearsal work/ homework/etc. . ) while I'm reading/ hearing/ doing it.
I am adopting 'theatrical templates' for looking/ hearing scripts/?.
My
it always goes somewhere.
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Added by Kahlil on April 6, 2009 at 12:30am —
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Help. I need suggestions. The local Bikram Yoga place in Southern CA. had a special for beginners: $20 for 7 consecutive days. A really good friend up north does Bikram Yoga and also a mentor suggested it because I do theater and I work an 8 hr. day job. I did it and fell in love with it. The 7 days ended Saturday and the classes are too expensive for the time being. Can anyone recommend an online podcast or site that might meet some kind of parallel with the actual 90 min. experience inside the…
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Added by Kahlil on March 16, 2009 at 9:16pm —
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Okay. 'The Wizard of Oz' went spectacularly well!
I am consciously factoring my neurosis and paranoia into joyfully and successfully doing my job.
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Added by Kahlil on March 5, 2009 at 10:37pm —
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What do I do now? I'm mentally exhausted from many weeks of rehearsals and simultaneously working. 'Wizard of Oz' opens on Friday. I'm feeling inappropriately unsocial, unconsciously lonely and a little guilty. That last sentence sounds like I'm in a comedy. Sooooo. . . . . I'm feeling…
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Added by Kahlil on February 24, 2009 at 5:45pm —
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Added by Kahlil on February 17, 2009 at 8:39pm —
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Hello. I tend to get devastated too easily. So. . . .
I'm not being devestated as easily. And
my trust in myself is increasing. :-)
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Added by Kahlil on February 12, 2009 at 10:17am —
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HEY! I've been cast in 'The Wizard of Oz' at Citrus College in Glendora, CA as 'The Wizard'!
I'm able to differentiate what does and does not require higher amounts of discipline in my life and Doing what needs to be done as a result. Continue
Added by Kahlil on January 30, 2009 at 2:25am —
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I am no longer a
whiny, little b!@#$. :-)
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Added by Kahlil on January 25, 2009 at 12:04pm —
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I hold tension, neurosis, stress, (?), in my right shoulder, my face and my stomach. What do I do with that besides see it 'there' eventually and then try and release, relax, drop.
I'm successfully and consciously preventing tension, neurosis, stress and (?) from manifesting itself in my body. Continue
Added by Kahlil on January 19, 2009 at 3:00pm —
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while good friend was down here, I began to feel and focus on 'shared life', we were together and had beheld, loved and realized our time was limited re: her visit. it was a process. so, having a 'shared life' with someone is a possibility.
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Added by Kahlil on January 14, 2009 at 11:00pm —
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My name is Kahlil.
My walls are consciously falling down.
I am having successful, conscious friendships that are turning into relationships.
I'm not yet sure what I'm doing
instead, but I'm no longer relying on things 'suddenly' happening re: creating friendships and relationships.
I'm figuring this out.
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Added by Kahlil on January 11, 2009 at 3:00am —
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Yeah!!!!! Life is good. When it's bad, life has room to transform. My goals in life are becoming consistent.
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Added by Kahlil on January 9, 2009 at 2:30am —
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