Well ladies and gentlemen, I'm here and back. I took a bit of time off as I was knee deep in college and trying to stay focused since this is a first time with me. Plus the last post was about a broken heart, but just to inform everyone he banned himself from the awful place so now there is no issue on that level. Instead we've been hanging out together as a family and just enjoying. Over the weekend we flew kites and kids rode bikes, it was a nice break.
I passed Math with an A, have two more…
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Added by Homemom3 on March 24, 2009 at 2:03pm —
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Okay the truth is, it didn't. He did it again, my thoughts aren't anger, resentment, sadness. I realize there's nothing. If I had a heart towards this I think it would shatter in a million pieces. It's strange because in all the months past when this would happen I'd be angry, mad, sad, heartbroken and cry. Here I am focusing on what the universe has taught me. I know it is here for me and I'll live through this. I must now move forward and on with life.
I thank the universe for the lessons it…
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Added by Homemom3 on March 5, 2009 at 6:30pm —
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Talk about a whirlwind. Okay first I can't recall which is upstream or downstream so I'll let you tell me. But whatever I'm on is GREAT! It's this happiness that fills you up to the point you feel you might burst with rays of sunshine. There's a warmth that surrounds me too, so muc…
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Added by Homemom3 on March 4, 2009 at 12:00pm —
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This past week I've been really looking at my life, I see things magically manifesting in a way I wanted but wasn't sure about. I'm happy with this and have finally put together a vision board and a creation box (I think that's what some are calling it) and I have felt everything…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 27, 2009 at 10:30am —
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Is it too late for us? Are you really getting a divorce? I will fight for you, I'll do anything you say...i just can't go to a counselor. These were all the things he said to me only a few hours after my last post here. We sat down and talked for 3 1/2 hours, we shared thoughts, feelings, tears, etc. When all was said and done I told him the timeline, he knew. After silence for what seemed like eternity, but only 30 minutes he asked me to get dressed. Said he'd planned something for a week but h…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 13, 2009 at 4:22pm —
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Wow, at the beginning I asked the Universe for a push in the right direction. I tried following it, tried going against it but it continued to push. All the way up until this mroning. Last night I discovered the hubby was tracking my every move online. This morning he asked what I'd do (via email) I responded meditate today. He asked what on I replied: Life, peace in the house and myself. He wanted to know why peace, I asked if he hadn't noticed the tension. He responded with a long letter and i…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 10, 2009 at 2:45pm —
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Today, things are really strange here right now so I'm going to try some daily affirmations I got out of "You can Heal Your Life" by Louise L. Hay.
- I am safe enough to be flexible in my mind.
- I choose to allow all my experiences to be joyous and loving.
- I create firm foundations for myself and for my life. I choose my beliefs to support me joyously.
- I am at peace with my own feelings. I am safe where I am. I create my own security. I love and approve of myself.
- I now go beyond other p…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 10, 2009 at 8:52am —
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I swear standing up for yourself and doing things to make you happy or just a tiny time alone sure can be hard. Once he came home, I told him I had plans. course the moment he came in he was telling us to hurry and get dressed so we can leave so he could come back here to go to bed. I asked (before telling him my plans) what were we doing, his response was whatever he felt like doing. I asked if we would get son's science stuff to which he replied, yes and whatever he wanted to do. At that point…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 9, 2009 at 12:32am —
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Yesterday the kids and I had a fabulous day, we enjoyed the sun and breeze and hung out with the neighbor down the street. Kids got to play her Guitar Hero and mommy got to sit and talk. It felt good to get out and be myself. We made plans for today, once the hubby gets home I plan on going.
Everything was quiet and fun, kids laughing but things changed once he arrived back home. He instantly wanted my cash and I didn't want to give it up. It was in the room, which would mean revealing where I…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 8, 2009 at 12:44pm —
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I've got a few emails asking if I am okay, yes I am. I've had a lot on my mind and a lot of thinking to do lately. I asked the universe for a sign on what the timing would be, yesterday my family called to ask if I could push it back just a tiny bit further so the kids could finish the school year. Otherwise I'd be taking them with a month/two months of school left, which means they'd get out of here emotional and be pushed into a new school not knowing anyone. This was a concern of mine too, so…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 7, 2009 at 9:10am —
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I realized today, after being woke at midnight and not being able to sleep I cleaned a bit and did some thinking. This journey is neat, it is also eye opening though and scary at the same time. I'm going to talk about each one.
The hubby, in case you hadn't read in the comment section of my last post he's up to it again. Okay, yesterday he did the whole giving me money. Many would look at that as a good sign, but not if you know. I'd hoped, I won't lie. I also tried getting him to watch "Firepr…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 4, 2009 at 12:33pm —
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Yes, I'm still here. Today was and will be a quiet day, one of which I can stop and just think and absorb everything that I've been learning and feeling. I'm much calmer about everything now, since speaking with him on Sunday Night I feel better and more at peace with myself.
On him- he's yet to make any comment to anything I said Sunday Night. But with that being stated he did email just to say morning and he does ask me about my day. He sent an email today telling me he wants us to do some fu…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 3, 2009 at 5:36pm —
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Wow, I'm in the first week now and I've seen both the good and the bad. I've seen small manifesting the entire way too, which I love. Yet, my emotions have been all over the place up and down. In my first entry, I mention trying to make a vision board and everything with "Changes" kept popping up. Now I see why.
My goals are to learn about myself and I'm continuing to do that every day. I'm sad inside and have been trying to hide under a smile for a long time, when really looked inside I learne…
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Added by Homemom3 on February 2, 2009 at 8:18am —
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Last night I realized I forgot everything that I'd learned in the past month at college. I dont think I really did but my brain froze and I did horrible on the test. We didn't get to talk last night as I think he knew and avoided talking at all costs unless about groceries. At night he went straight to bed, once I was asleep though he woke (guessing he senses it) and couldn't sleep.
Today, his father called and told him about addictions while I was in class. We still haven't spoke but I (JUST)…
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Added by Homemom3 on January 31, 2009 at 1:52pm —
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First I want to give a great big hug to all those that commented on the blog posts, my page or even sent me a personal email. Yesterday I hit a bottom that actually helped me out. It was a day of frustrations and tears, anger, voices and fears. But when it was all said and done and as I sat quietly in a bubble bath, I couldn't help but smile. I knew that whatever I do there is a bright side on both journeys I go. I do plan on having a long discussion with the hubby over all this. He too knows we…
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Added by Homemom3 on January 30, 2009 at 3:21pm —
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I'm coming to you all for a little help/advice. I'm with someone that has an addiction, not to drugs or anything like that. But it hurts just the same. Is there anything to make a person change? For the past few years I've dealt with it and let it flow because I always thought, this will be the last time. It never was, even when it came down to me almost leaving a year ago. he told me he'd get help, he did, but only went twice and then lied about going. He'd quit and never told me. I've tried to…
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Added by Homemom3 on January 29, 2009 at 10:43am —
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Okay, I'm sure ya'll can see how I've had some down moments and then I go up. I guess it depends on how things are going on the homefront. This morning I took some time to just breathe and imagine the good air come in and blew out all the bad thoughts and feelings. Later I got to emailing with someone and just lit up.
I swear to ya'll that when you are happy and positive you do nothing more than glow. I know what it means to glow or radiate now. I picture myself with this heart that is become b…
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Added by Homemom3 on January 28, 2009 at 6:31pm —
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Hi Co-Creators and Friends,
I must say first of all I'm greatful to be feeling as well as I do, don't get me wrong I'm not better but feeling 85% better than yesterday. :) That's a good thing too figuring I would've rather just curled up into a ball and be left alone yesterday.
Some interesting things happened this week, every couple of days I get a motivational email from "The Universe" and this last two really spoke to me:
(As you know I'm looking for the real me and to feel REALLY Loved)…
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Added by Homemom3 on January 28, 2009 at 12:00pm —
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Wow, this has defintiely become a journey. I hadn't narrowed down my list yet but I'm slowly coming around to it. I ended up with the stomach bug the kids had and still have it. Struck suddenly and now I'm here at the house feeling yuck. Figure this will probably be the only post today and it'll be short.
-Discovering me- I'm still discovering who I am but I'm learning more and more about myself. Thank you to Ahem (sp) the lady that sent me the link to the book. I've already begun reading it. I…
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Added by Homemom3 on January 27, 2009 at 3:58pm —
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My journey of awakening begins today, so hopefully I can get to know the inner me and just what it is I seek and need in the present for a brighter future. I never had the word "Changes" on here until last night when the word kept popping up everywhere, so I'm going with that now and we'll see where it takes us.
Currently I'm being faced with a lot of life issues and some very hard/big decisions. I know change is eminent, I just don't know what type. I'm hoping that the Universe will give me a…
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Added by Homemom3 on January 26, 2009 at 6:28am —
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