today has been an up and down kind of day. my mind is wondering to places that are not good or helpful for me. as a result, i end up feeling very sad, unmotivated and lost. i've had to try to snap myself out of it a couple of times today.
so that's the down part.
the up parts have been that i've recognised when my mind has wondered into thinking about these unhelpful scenarios. i've been able to do something to snap myself out of it. as a result, i did my exercise for the day (it's now raining s…
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Added by Stephanie on September 3, 2009 at 12:12am —
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today's blog is probably going to be a quick one because i'm not sure what i want to write about.
it's been a good day, in that i've done my exercise for the day and i'm on track with my eating. actually that isn't entirely correct. i've noticed my eating has not been the best. i've been overeating during main meals ... ever so slightly. but i believe everything counts in the end. i hope my weight doesn't jump alot - that's happened before in this pregnancy. it's interesting .... if i stick to a…
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Added by Stephanie on September 1, 2009 at 10:04pm —
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today is day 38 and it feels like i only sparingly write my blogs. season one was soo much more deciplined :)
since my last blog, i've managed to stick to my smaller more focused intention. i was feeling disconnected and so decided i'd do my seasons with a theme. this current theme is to be healthy for my pregnancy and watch my weight so i don't put on too much weight.
my dr confirmed that i'd been putting on too much weight and he suggested i try to slow that down or try not to gain on weight f…
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Added by Stephanie on September 1, 2009 at 1:45am —
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Right now i'm feeling confused, past feelings have been stirred up and its left me feeling confused.
I guess you can say, I came across a business opportunity that appeared great but didn't work out. it turned out to be one of those referral systems that i'm not interested in.
That wasn't the problem. The problem was that this conjured up old feelings of mine about work. see, i left a happening corporate career (that i wasn't happy in) to pursue my dream of getting my book published. in the midd…
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Added by Stephanie on August 26, 2009 at 7:13pm —
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I realised today that i'm probably stretching myself out too thin with all my intentions. i'm focusing on so many different elements of my life, and improving them, that i'm not effective.
when i was younger, i use to live each year with a theme. at new years, i would declare the theme and my aim would to surround myself and experience all things to do with that theme.
I'm thinking about doing the same thing with the reality challenges. I've been finding it difficult to focus this season and so…
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Added by Stephanie on August 24, 2009 at 11:22pm —
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today is day 22 and i haven't been consistent with my blogs. i'm also feeling pretty disconnected, existing rather than living. don't get me wrong, i'm in a happy place but it just feels like i'm not focused.
i think this sums up me for the past few months. i'm doing things for other people and before i know it, they day's already gone.
that being said, some really great manifestations have happened during this second season. ofcourse they feel very random and i'm not sure how it's all happenin…
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Added by Stephanie on August 18, 2009 at 8:26pm —
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It's only the start of my day but i thought i'd write my blog because I don't seem to get a chance later on.
i guess all's going well at the moment. there's no drama's or problems, so that's really good. but i still feel disconnected. i'm rushing around doing too much and not having enough time to myself to feel like i've lived through the day but rather existed through it.
... yet in a strange way, i'm still in a really happy place.
so some of the disconnected things i have noticed are;
- days…
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Added by Stephanie on August 4, 2009 at 7:43pm —
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i don't have too much to say today. my day has gone well so far. i've been able to maintain my basic routine and have had plenty of time to do the things i wanted to. i've enjoyed myself.
outside of that, i don't have much to comment on. the only thing i wanted to mention was that i need to remember to channel my happy energies. i've been spending so much time helping others that i haven't been thinking about me. so, i feel a little run down and a little down, in general.
i spent a few hours tal…
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Added by Stephanie on July 30, 2009 at 1:40am —
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well today is the first day of season 2 and it's been good so far. my day has been well and i've had plenty of time for relaxing, which i haven't had for a few weeks.
i noticed i'm in an observational mood. i feel like i've stepped back and am 'being there for others' more than for myself. it's not a bad thing, just something i've realised and so am going to take action to being here for me.
i also noticed that i've got some negative feelings popping up every now and then. i made a decision to p…
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Added by Stephanie on July 29, 2009 at 1:40am —
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It's that time again to set my intentions for season 2. My priorities have changed and that's reflected in my intentions.
first of all, i'm pregnant now. Today is the start of the 16th week (4th month). Obviously, i want a healthy pregnancy and for the baby to grow healthy. I want to continue taking care of my health too. I also want to continue my dream of becoming a published author.
Here's a list outline of what i hope to achieve.
1 - Take care of myself and have a healthy second trimester…
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Added by Stephanie on July 26, 2009 at 12:13am —
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Today, i've decided to write my closing blog for season 1. It's been a while since i've last written a blog (day 48, i think), but the 100days have well and truly expired. i intend to start season 2 tomorrow, so to close off season one, here is a summary of my intentions and how i went.
1 - sharpen my skills in creating my life ............... I began improving the consistency of some elements of creating my
life, but not all.
2 - get my book published ................................... This d…
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Added by Stephanie on July 20, 2009 at 4:18am —
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i don't know what day i'm up to with the challenge but i know it's past the 50 day mark.
i wanted to write a quick blog because it's been a while but also because i need to remind myself to smile.
my husband has finally left for his work OS trip. it'll be 2 months long and ofcourse i'm having mixed emotional feelings about it. i'm ok during the day but not during the evenings. there's the missing him terribly and seeing a missing piece (ie, his presence), there's the knowledge that i'm alone. t…
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Added by Stephanie on May 4, 2009 at 10:44pm —
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So far today has been such a lovely day. i've done my exercise for the day, and i feel very healthy and happy. after this blog, i'll be start writing my story.
i've started doing a quick morning meditation or prayer before i get out of bed. it's very quick and the idea is to start my day on a great note because i feel very good and happy when i do either. it's been going well.
In this morning's meditation, i realised how loved i was and how wonderful my life is. i am actually living out what i w…
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Added by Stephanie on April 29, 2009 at 12:38am —
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Today is day 47 and i'm getting closer to the halfway mark :)
In Australia we had the biggest loser finale and the winner Bob actually lost over 50% of his bodyweight. he was literally half a person! It was such an inspiration watching him last night. i checked youtube and the finale isn't on youtube yet so i couldn't give a URL to see the weigh in. it was truely inspiring. He was the oldest contestant (i think he was 58 yrs old ... or something like that) and he just looked amazing!
it was a c…
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Added by Stephanie on April 27, 2009 at 10:10pm —
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Today is day 43 and i'm having a good day so far.
firstly, just wanted to say thanks to Kev & Rick (THG) for their words of wisdom for yesterday's blog (dealing with rejection). it was inspiring to keep going and not giving up.
I'm feeling a little more settled today and I handled another agent rejection quite well this morning. I don't have any residual upset / hurt feelings. i think it's sad because i still haven't found the agent that'll represent me but i believe it'll happen. i believe…
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Added by Stephanie on April 23, 2009 at 10:15pm —
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Today is day 42 and i'm heading into the halfway mark of my first season :)
i didn't write a blog yesterday so i wanted to make sure i got today's one done.
at the moment, i am dealing with rejection. my current experience is in the form of agent rejections for my book - but one thing i know is rejection is the same for every aspect of life. any form of rejection holds the same emotions and those emotions really suck! it's aweful and it feels dark and it sucks! that's the only way to put it.
fo…
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Added by Stephanie on April 22, 2009 at 10:46pm —
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Today is day 40 and i'm having a great day so far.
i'll be spending the day with my mother and 10 yr old nephew who's on school holidays. i am going to have a fun time.
over the last couple of days, i have been trying to work on surrendering all the 'worry' to god or the universe and just concentrating on the feeling when my intentions manifest. i realised i carry alot of worry and that just makes me anxious and results in mixed manifestations (as my intentions become mixed with the hopeful and…
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Added by Stephanie on April 20, 2009 at 8:41pm —
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today is day 39 and i'm having a really good day.
in my last blog entry i mentioned i wouldn't be writing for a few days because friday was my weddnig anniversary, sunday was my birthday and my husband had a surprise planned for me.
well did he have a surprise or what? he arranged a trip to melbourne! he is so wonderful and i'm seriously the luckiest girl on the planet!
he arranged for my friend in melbourne to spend the 3 days with us so that was wonderful too! he went to such great lengths! he…
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Added by Stephanie on April 19, 2009 at 11:27pm —
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today is day 35 and it's been a fairly good day so far. i feel very good, healthy and happy :)
over the next couple of days, i probably won't get a chance to write a blog because my husband has a surprise for me that'll last until sunday. it's our wedding anniversary tomorrow (16th) and my birthday on sunday 19th. so he's planned a surprise that covers both - i tell ya, i'm the luckies girl in the world to have him :)
last time he took me away to hamilton island which was soooo wonderful.
i also…
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Added by Stephanie on April 14, 2009 at 9:15pm —
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today is day 34 and due to the easter period and our trip away, i haven't had a chance to write a blog.
first of all - the trip was wonderful. this was the free flight to tasmania and it was divine. i had the opportunity to spend that whole time with my husband and we just went with the flow. it was great!
secondly - it's the first time i've flown on a plane in about 1.5yrs because i suffer panic attacks from the enclosed space.
i use to love flying but after feeling 'stuck' in a cave, i wasn't…
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Added by Stephanie on April 13, 2009 at 10:16pm —
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