Wow, Day 93 and I haven't written a blog since New Year's Day, which was Day 55 for me. This past month has seen me hit some real lows; so it's a good time to stick my head up and try to see the light.
Here's what's been going on with my intentions for my challenge:
TAKE BETTER CARE OF MYSELF. I've been relatively good at exercising lately, especially since it's been hard to get myself to do it. I usually feel better afterward, but I never believe it before or during it! My appetite hasn't bee…
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Added by Jay Ey on February 8, 2009 at 9:14pm —
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2008 was in many ways a nightmare for me. I've been adrift, questioning everything about myself and getting stuck obsessing for hours on end in my head. So, it's time to take stock in what made 2008 "Gr8te."
1. My mother got diagnosed with breast cancer around Thanksgiving of 2007. At the start of 2008 she had had surgery and was to begin chemo. One year later, after much chemo and radiation, she seems healthier than before. I took her to tea earlier this week and had a conversation wher…
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Added by Jay Ey on January 1, 2009 at 10:02pm —
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Halfway through my challenge, I've been missing in action for a while, but I'm back to blog. A few monkey wrenches were thrown into my machinery (including a nasty cold; a crazy, lessening work project situation and preparation for the holidays) and I bogged down. I'm taking steps now to get back to the creation of my evolving reality.
What I gave
* I asked a couple women out for drinks. So far I've met with one, whom I really liked (we spent three hours together) and yet it turns…
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Added by Jay Ey on December 29, 2008 at 12:33am —
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Act your age, not your shoe size. That used to be a snide insult when I was a kid. And for some reason I think if it as I write that it is Day 32 of my challenge. In any case, I've lost some rhythm in my challenge & gained some others.
What I gave
* I'm needing to get back into the rhythm of my intention to explore what I want to do with my life. I've postponed this somewhat over the past couple months as I've had some steady project work. but it's time to recommit. I'm…
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Added by Jay Ey on December 10, 2008 at 12:06am —
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What, what a strange day was yesterday.
* I was all prepared for an important meeting with the client at noon, with a "pre-meeting" with colleagues scheduled for 10. I had finished a new version of a presentation I had "in the can" as well as a draft of a working document that was good work. And I wasn't up late into the night finishing it and worrying about whether it was good enough.
* I went to an unrelated early morning meeting. Then went to Starbucks to check my e-mail. Starbucks wa…
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Added by Jay Ey on December 5, 2008 at 1:17am —
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What I gave
* I spent four hours on Sunday and eight hours yesterday filling out an application for health insurance, along with assorted other activities like figuring out the best deductible, tax implications of higher deductibles, finding old proofs of insurance and canceled checks... I'm a walking billboard on how f-ed up the health insurance system is here in the US. Hopefully, it will be approved and this will be the last time I give my energy to this for quite some time.
* One of m…
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Added by Jay Ey on December 2, 2008 at 11:20pm —
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Wow. Already coming up on a quarter of my 100 Day Reality Challenge, and I feel like I somehow missed the past ten days. May I borrow them back please?!?
What I gave
* It's more what I didn't give from my perspective tonight. I haven't been focusing enough, and if I want to change, that's what I'm going to have to do. I'm seeing this again and I can make corrections.
* I'm not completely hopeless. I had a couple productive work days this week, before the Thanksgiving holiday. The…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 30, 2008 at 3:16am —
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Here comes the sun. Do do do do. Here comes the sun. And I-I say. It's alright.
The winter mornings are rough, and the best I can do is rush across the room, hit the snooze button to spare myself the obnoxious, multi-tonal ring of my alarm clock, and then jump back into bed and tur…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 26, 2008 at 1:29am —
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"And so I said to myself, 'why don't you just pick up the book—yes, the one right there—and start writing in it?'"
This image is similar to the cover of the journal in which I write. It is one of the two best presents I have gotten from old girlfriends, this one because it seemed to fi…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 25, 2008 at 12:40am —
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With this week turning into a work bonanza, I've lost some focus & rhythm on my intentions. But the weekend will allow me to get back on track.
What I sowed
I had a meeting with a client that went well for me today, after working very hard on a presentation. I was especially lucky, because the client was here for two days and apparently beating up my colleagues in other meetings I didn't attend. I should say, part of my meeting was luck, but most of it was my hard work. That b…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 22, 2008 at 1:13am —
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All work and no play is making Jay a dull boy the past couple days
What I sowed
* I've mainly done work the past couple days. Yesterday, I pretty much started work when I awoke and only stopped for a couple hours over the span of the day before going to bed at 1:30 am this morning. Today hasn't been quite as bad, since a meeting that was scheduled for tomorrow was postponed until Friday AM. Yesterday I actually got into a groove, which hasn't happened in some time, and I felt like…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 20, 2008 at 12:58am —
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I'm ten percent finished with my challenge. The glass is 10% full, rather than 90% empty.
What I gave
* Another difficult day for me to focus on work, but I did get a few things done and I prepared for a telephone call with one of my clients tomorrow. She's bright and collaborative; so I'm looking forward to it. She also values that I am so prepared; the first time I met her she was really impressed with that. It surprised me that the bar was so low! But it was good to feel…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 18, 2008 at 1:38am —
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Quite busy weekend. Fell behind on some of my intentions, but for good trade-offs.
What I gave
* Butter got me running. I went to a pot luck with my cooking club, and the theme was to celebrate the past year (a Thanksgiving of sorts). We were to bring something that we had…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 17, 2008 at 2:09am —
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Wow, I didn't even realize a week had already gone by. Let me check the list:
What I gave
* I haven't missed a day of eating breakfast or at least four fruits/vegees. I haven't done a strong aerobic workout; yet I've exercised (calisthenics) six of seven days. Not bad. The seasons bring me down, and I've used my light box 5 of 7 days, as was my plan. I've only gotten enough sleep on three of five days, but I'll work on that. I've meditated 5 times, which was my goal.
* I made three new p…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 15, 2008 at 12:39am —
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Another day where I'm ending with an energy low...
What I gave
* Once again, I didn't get as much work done as I would have liked today, but one thing I did do was to put together three good slides for a presentation that will be important to my client. I'm grateful that I found a creative way to present them and link them together.
What I received
* Over the summer I signed-up for a volunteer organization where people use their business skills to help non-profits. It didn't seem…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 13, 2008 at 11:09pm —
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A chilly, damp day in Chicago. But no flu precipitation yet!
What I gave
I got some work done again today. I wasn't as productive as yesterday, but I was productive nevertheless. I only have a little momentum, but I'm grateful that I'm keeping it going. I learned a lot about how to track visi…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 13, 2008 at 12:45am —
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My grandfather used to always say, "slow and steady wins the race." Today was slow and steady.
What I gave
* I have had a lot of days lately where I couldn't focus on my work. Today, I had a stretch of about five hours where I was thinking clearly and writing a presentation as a result. I'm grateful and relieved that I wasn't stressed out and beating myself up; rather I was just focused and absorbed in the work. I hope to keep this energy going.
* I ate right today--well-balanced and thr…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 12, 2008 at 12:23am —
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Today was a mixed bag. I didn't get a lot done that I wanted to get done; but I did get a number of little things done.
What I gave
* I spent a LONG time looking into health insurance plans, and I got a second month of temporary insurance to tide me over while I figure out a more-permanent solution. I took some time off work this year. I had worked at a small company that only qualified me for 9 months of continuing insurance. I'm pissed at myself for letting this go another month, and I…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 11, 2008 at 12:01am —
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Day two found me feeling good about momentum.
What I Gave:
* I found an interesting fitness motivator a few weeks ago--a deck of 52 cards, each with an exercise on it. I tried them for the first time today--I shuffled & did 8 of them. I'm grateful that I'm already in pretty good shape as I begin to improve my fitness. I'm also grateful that I'm able to think of new ways & structures to help me improve my life & my outlook.
* I spent most of the morning and afternoon reading a…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 10, 2008 at 1:16am —
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If I were a TV show creator and/or director (of course I would like to fancy myself of the caliber of
The Wire), and I was recapping Season 1 of my 100 Day Reality Challenge... Well, I would have to say that this business is tough. I had grand ambitions and I got a lot of things…
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Added by Jay Ey on November 8, 2008 at 1:30am —
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