Bronwen's Blog (5)

I saw the psychiatrist today who has decided not to prescribe me antidepressants. This is positive as it means by Day 100 when i achieve my goal of happiness it will be real happiness and not drug induced! So YAY to that! I have 2 projects to get done by tomorrow afternoon and no motivation and I really need to tidy my home so I am calling my guides for help with this! I need a miracle! So much to do but I am in bed feeling like a dead weight! the music projects are very important for my other… Continue

Hey! I am having treatment in the special recovery unit and I am very lucky to be work with a very lovely and spiritual lady. We are working through self esteem workbooks and trying to get rid of my negative core beliefs. My special person is being quite supportive but he is challenging the theories of my treatment. He upset me the other night and I ended up taking more of y medication than I should have. He came round because he was concerned and we had a night of passion which was so wrong… Continue

Well I am moving forward in my quest for happiness and inner love and self esteem. I have accepted that there are issues I need to address and I have started on the slow and long path to fulfilling my wishes. I am very tired today having been to the special crisis recovery unit which manifested from my Day 2 weird experience. I have been with an occupational therapist who is a lovely lady. I unearthed a lot of past unresolved grief in an hour long conversation with her and spent the rest of t… Continue

Ok so after my great day 1 it was late in the night and I got into a conversation online with the special person who has caused me great heartache by choosing to be single. After a difficult conversation my feelings were so overwhelming I began contemplating suicide. This has been a tendency of mine for many years initiated by a bad childhood experience which subsequently led to years of low self esteem and occasional drug abuse. I realised that feeling this way was not an option for me anymor… Continue

So, here goes my first day which will lead me on a journey until 22nd July! At the moment I am very sad and confused due to a relationship breaking down. I am in a lot of pain and finding it difficult to make room for other feelings. I really want to move from this head space and by 22nd July I hope to be more in control of my feelings and to not have negative thoughts! I am a very positive person usually but this relationship with a very special person has kind of twisted my head because I am… Continue