As planned, I printed out my resume and took it by the building I saw that advertised tutoring services, but unfortunately, the building was for rent and the awning was the only thing left of that tutoring company lol. It is funny because I feel like I am chasing something that is outside of my nature again. I don't want my desire for the things that money can buy to outshine my desire to remain true to myself. Do you know how it feels to be good at something, but when people ask you to do it, i…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 22, 2009 at 6:18pm —
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Today is Monday, my favorite day of the week, but I love every day as they are all full of bounty.
I applied for a tutor job online, and will visit the building that I saw tomorrow to make sure that they see my registration. This will help me to continue to work on my math as well as help other people with their own work. I need to get away from doing these articles, so this should help a lot.
I can't wait to purchase some beautiful clothing! I have been loving the styles of Indian clothes wit…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 21, 2009 at 5:30pm —
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I intended on going to the mall to get out of the house but didn't get out until about 4:30ish. By that time I thought it best to take Alex home and plan for something else. Honestly, I didn't want to be in a mall atmosphere and ended up wasting the time away. I ended up taking Olivia and Nicky to the dollar show where we saw Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs. There seem to be many shops and boutiques in that area, and I am sure that there is a consignment shop and thrift store there as well if…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 20, 2009 at 10:00pm —
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I have had some overwhelming emotions lately. The first emotion has been love - unconditional, complete and whole love - consuming my emotions before I have an opportunity to feel any other way. I notice how this love seems to vary in intensity, from this radiant, glowing love that is so large (this love I feel the most and EVERY day), to a subtle love, a "regardless" love, as I encounter different people with different awareness and different objectives.
The second emotion has been one of the…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 19, 2009 at 10:00pm —
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I was hoping to sleep in this morning but one of my sisters lagged behind when getting ready for school and missed her bus =\ They are learning how to be responsible for themselves when they never have had to worry about that. They were completely disabled by being pacified instead of growing and they have to break out of that. It's coming along though, it is a process.
I've only written 5 articles this week which still leaves me with 30 - terrible based upon the way I used to crank articles ou…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 18, 2009 at 10:00pm —
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Busy, busy day!
Olivia had a half day of school and a parent teacher's conference, and my sister's high school had some kind of dance thing going on, so we went to that and had pizza. By the end of it, the babies were sick of going out, and so was I lol.
At least I will be able to sleep in tomorrow - Olivia doesn't have to go back to school until January 4th. I have been feeling congested the past couple evenings, and have had a very difficult time sleeping, so I am looking forward to the rest…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 17, 2009 at 10:30pm —
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After avoiding the situation for a few weeks, I took my computer to my ex-husband's shop today to see if he could fix it. Bittersweet considering the court dates I attended to prevent myself from landing in jail due to owing around $500 of child support. I can approach life as an abused child would - cautious, wanting to be trusting, but afraid - or I could approach life as the child that I am and that I want to be - playful, happy, energetic, with compassion and love to share - and I chose the…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 16, 2009 at 10:00pm —
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Okay, the moment I have been waiting for since Sunday has finally arrived!
Here are my grades for the Fall 2009 season - I took 6 classes at 18 credit hours for the semester:
Ready?
Here they are!
Child Psychology: A
Elementary Algebra A
Sociology A
Humanities A
Anthropology A
Economics A
YAY!!! I am especially thrilled about my A in math because I was told all of my life that I wasn't good at math and I would never excel at it. It was a challenge, but I blew it out!! HA!! I can do ANYTHING…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 15, 2009 at 11:30pm —
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The only thing I was missing on this first day of my break is a Playstation 2 so that I could have absorbed myself in a role playing game of battle and triumph lol. I got to sleep, rest, and relax away from the computer for the most part as I had intended in my previous challenge. I have spent SO much time on the computer it has been ridiculous, and I do believe that I am addicted.
I have 35 articles to write, and my computer is no longer working properly, so I have to use my sister's computer…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 14, 2009 at 10:30pm —
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Over the past few days, I finished my finals for school and my computer is no longer working properly lol. The pin in the back of my laptop disconnected from the motherboard, so it isn't getting any AC power, so I have to get it fixed or, by the grace and will of the Universe, get a new one.
I have 35 articles to write also which I was supposed to be finished with a month ago, so I am going to need to use my sister's computer until I have better access to get them done.
I am out of school unti…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 13, 2009 at 10:00pm —
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My sisters and I had a court date today, potentially to terminate my guardianship over my youngest sister. My mom filed the motion for termination of guardianship a month after I received guardianship, so the judge asked her to tell the court what changed between that time to today. For those of you who don't know why my sisters are living with me, my 18 year old sister told me that my mother's new husband had been touching her inappropriately, so I removed her and my 16 year old sister from my…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 10, 2009 at 1:11pm —
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I finished my math final today, and it went REALLY well. I truly appreciate my math teacher because he recognizes the hard work that you are putting in to learn what he teaches. My study buddies are also great, they are following me to my next math class on January 19th.
I studied for my math final most of the day and had a great nap. I also had the opportunity to look at a rent to own home down the street that had some nice qualities, but being out on a main road that you have to back out onto…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 9, 2009 at 10:00pm —
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I finished my Sociology class tonight. Myself and 5 other people did a presentation on pollution as a social problem, and we all did a great job. We got heavy applause when we were done.
It reminded me how important our efforts in using alternative energy individually are. It is so easy and so cost efficient to switch to solar and wind energy. You save so much money and you can still run your house the same way as normal. A mixture of wind and solar energies will keep you from being on "the gri…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 8, 2009 at 10:47pm —
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Today was one of those days where I felt I wasn't being as productive as I need to be. I went to my math class and got about half of my review sheet done for my final on Wednesday, and the rest of the day I spent doing research on green energy and my government.
Researching the info on my government in America actually freaked me out on the same level watching scary movies does. I didn't start feeling right again until I went to school and got out in the air where I could talk to other people.…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 7, 2009 at 11:36pm —
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I subscribed to Project Camelot when I was watching various interviews with Indigo Children, so I receive notification of new interviews when they come up. Well, there were some recent interviews done with people whose names were not familiar to me, so I listened to one of those. I happened to listen to their interview with a man named Jordan Maxwell who is a noted researcher of symbolism in the world, in religious, government and other environments in the world. WOW. Very fascinating. Here is t…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 6, 2009 at 11:06pm —
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Budgeting, budgeting and more budgeting - I thought I had MUCH less money than I thought I had tonight, and looking at everything - I have been so blessed. The bills were a lot more this month than they should be because they included last month and we are still becoming stable with conserving energy comfortably. I think about alternative energy most when I pay the bills.
98% of the American people hold 10% of the wealth, while 2% of the American people hold 90% of the wealth. Hmm. This means t…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 5, 2009 at 10:00pm —
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I have been getting synchronicity from the left and right today. I chose, as I was driving this morning, to be aware of life and my senses opening up. To allow everything to be a part of the flow of my own energy, and to allow myself to feel as an intricate part of everything that is happening around me. I am everything, and everything is me. Within this feeling, several things happened. I felt everything about me becoming entwined with the rest of the world. My thoughts, my feelings, everything…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 4, 2009 at 11:59pm —
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We all need to take time each day to be silent and to relax. The drudgery of our daily habits and routines saps our energy, and we do a lot of things that close our auras off such as being at the computer and being trapped in the car (surrounded by all of that metal!) and other things that are not living and breathing around us.
This is the story of my life, especially over the past 5 years. Being on the computer, driving people back and forth like a chauffeur, always having to go to some indoo…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 3, 2009 at 10:11am —
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I had a lot of very inspiring encounters and conversations today that helped me to blaze a trail through the thought process connected to achieving my life's purpose of helping people find solutions for living their best life.
I spoke with my friend Kay today, and we talked about the difficulties in paying rent, expenses associated with taking on a second and third menial job, how we can possibly work together to lighten the stress that we feel on one another, and I got to talk about wanting to…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 2, 2009 at 10:58pm —
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Life - Wide Open. A poem by Tamara Rasheed
Open wide - the life I live can't hold me.
My body has a hard enough time confining my mind.
Topping boxes with anchors will keep the lid closed
As if we could never think outside them.
Didn't you know that thoughts become things?
Who said life had to be like THIS?
Aren't you curious...?
Cow, the grass you eat could be more sweet if it wasn't grass at all,
and I'm not cattle - I'm free - so I eat what I please.
The life dictated - - - - isn't the li…
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Added by Tamara Rasheed on December 2, 2009 at 12:00pm —
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