Now, well into Season 2, I wanted to take a moment to stop in to my blog here. Much of the work I've done so far has been offline in a type of hermetic trance - coming out in public when necessary - scurrying back into my chamber when possible.
I have set into motion some important goals and intentions. For that, I am proud and hopeful. Yet, there is a certain public aspect that I now feel emerging. I haven't determined it's exact form, but I am close. To that end, I decided to start with this…
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Day 18, Season 1
I travelled, with the boys in tow, to San Jose where there were three sheets of rocks (48 42-pound stones) that had to be moved to Fremont. Then in Fremont, there were the equal number of stones to be returned. I can't say how many I lifted and carried, two by two, by suffice it to say my neck and shoulders were quite strained by the end.
In the evening, sitting alone in the quiet, I began to meditate. Again, Kristy was right. I was not grounded and this time I was very aware…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 21, 2008 at 6:36pm —
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Day 19, Season 1
WOW! I must have lifted WAY MORE THAN MY SHARE of stones yesterday. I recognize that as a habit as I often do way more than my share in all activities. It's not that I don't trust others to do things right; it's not that I am a control freak who refuses to let go: it's not that I always want to play the part of the hero (though that is an old pattern). No, I recognize this as my taking on a greater share of a loothsome job so others won't be as burdened.
What does that say of…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 21, 2008 at 6:30pm —
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Days 15-17, Season 1
Sometimes there are days that just float by while one waits for the descent of night. Days 15-17 were just such days. I let the mundane chores be mundane, let the mundane work be mundane, let myself be mundane for my nocturnal plans were far more intensive and required all my strength.
I am of course referring to my sexual home-life. There's nothing explicit to be found in my words here, just the acknowledgment that 1) I have a sexual life, 2) my sexual life is not mundan…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 19, 2008 at 6:00pm —
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Day 14, Season 1
I treated myself to the divine voice of my dear friend, Kristy, today. What a breath of fresh air!
And what a difference from the day before! In retrospect (ugh! reminds me of Mercury Retrograde), I think the unexpected turmoil of Monday was a catalyzing force, a catharsis, and as I said yesterday, a wake-up call! What good are these things if you don't follow them up with powerful insights, revelations, and a kick in the ass?!
So... THANK YOU MISS KRISTY! Soon, I'll be post…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 15, 2008 at 6:30pm —
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Day 13, Season 1
If any of you heard my primal scream, I apologize for the shrillness of it. I forced out scream after scream, tears streaming, my soul abandoning my body to freely stretch across the sky as it fled the sorrow.
How, with one wake-up call, I leapt forward in my reality and defined my quest to create the reality I want.
It begged the question: is there any point to being the Positive Voice, the Instument of Change
for Others if it does not help those you love the most? Is it t…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 14, 2008 at 7:05pm —
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Days 10-12, Season 1
I took time off from technology again this weekend. Yikes! That could be habit forming! heh heh
I felt a sharp pull back of my energy - so sharp in fact that I felt a bit fluish or whiplashy (is that even a word?).
It all started when I went to the computer Friday morning to book my flight to Seattle. If you haven't read my blogs, here's the synopsis: I am involved in the sport of curling and was asked to participate in a Women's Nationals team. I faced my fears and mani…
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Day 9, Season 1
I spent the evening going through the pages of the giant VOGUE magazine. I cut out all of the pages that I felt attracted to, then laid them out in related groups. Interesting!
There was a group that resembled who I was before.
There was a group that represents who I am now.
There was a group of shoes and funky tights.
There was a group that embraces what I see for the future.
OK. It's like a Tarot Card Reading!
The group that resembled who I was before - this group i…
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Day 8, Season 1
The day was volatile in the stock market, and really in the whole world. The pressure of it was palpable and actually acted like static noise in my head. Even my body was conducting static electricity.
It was my brother's birthday so that evening I when to celebrate with my family. It was nice, but I found it necessary to excuse myself early because I needed the break from the buzzing and whirring of noise from the day.
When I got home... I cracked open a jigsaw puzzle that I…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 10, 2008 at 3:44pm —
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Day 7, Season 1
With the enhancement of exercise, there logically follows health and well-being. I knew my body was under assault by stress and environment, but manners turned to the worst when I stopped Curling through Spring and Summer. Allergies attacked my system, agrievated by the extreme smoke conditions of the Central California fires which basically surrounded the Monterey Peninsula.
It was during the early stages that I consulted my Athletic Physician. "Um... Is it possible that dehy…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 7, 2008 at 7:03pm —
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Days 4-6, Season 1
Heeding Andie's advice in Manifesting by the Moon, I spent nearly all of these days away from technology... and specifically the computer. I relaxed. I meditated. I cooked. I prayed. I read. I rested. And as I brought myself back, I understood that the goals I set here are not achievable while my body is out of synch with my mind.
How interesting it is to know that the mind exercises at the same level as the body. When one allows the body to slow, to stiffen, then mind will…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 7, 2008 at 6:38pm —
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Day 3, Season 1
MANIFESTING MY DECISION
After posting my blog yesterday, I made the decision to GO FOR IT! That is, that I will attempt to go forward with my dream of curling on a National team, towards going to the Oympic Trials.
I put this out to the Universe in an exclamation of faith, that my soul had spoken, that I was ready.
Inevitably that meant that I was about to embark on the task of fundraising. While I have always enjoyed doing that for good causes, I had never really put myself…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 4, 2008 at 5:12am —
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Yesterday was my first day and I posted my first blog reflecting on one of my intentions. I posted it here AND on my Myspace blog.
It was so interesting to read the reactions at Myspace. I left out the italicized prologue, though in retrospect I should have included it and added an introduction describing The 100 Day Reality Challenge because the commentors on the blog and those that emailed really didn't have a context for my story. Especially in email, people viewed it as some thing sad and l…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 3, 2008 at 1:22am —
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This is my first post, and while I am very in touch with the person I am, I believe it's time to re-visit issues that have come before and to look at them in a different light.
First, I look at my statement TO BE THE HERO OF MY SOUL. I know the moment of consciousness here. Below, I explore that moment and honor it as the genesis of the 'Actualized Me'. I share it here to co-create my intention... my intention TO BE THE HERO OF MY SOUL.
TO BE THE HERO OF MY SOUL
Two years ago I was…
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Added by Beverly - The Gothic Gourmet on October 1, 2008 at 8:00pm —
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