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I do not feel I am content or happy with what I am doing, but i got to a point in my life where I never feel this anymore. Sometimes I feel like a coward because I never had the courage to go into the arts and now I am trapped. I know in my heart that it comes from the inside etc. so I keep going. Positive thinking drains me.
So, I am not sure, but I will keep visualizing finding my mission inside and out.

sometimes I feel like not writing or saying anything about myself
I go through ups and downs
I think it is important to let go even when it is not enough
or it seems like it is never going to change
words have a power
which we can use to let go and open
open up
yesterday as I walked I thought about how it would feel to not keep watching myself from afar, this me and me prison
and just be
not be the best, the accepted, the one that gets noticed or acclaimed
but just be be be
very cliche in a way,… Continue

Sometimes we cannot realize our manifestation until you have gratitude; I have gratitude for my stomach's health, which has been in bad shape and I have been feeling better. For my friends, who came over yesterday and we had such a good time. For my great husband and our love. For my family, my school etc.
I am visualizing finding my mission in life, my place in this academic world, which I do not know what it is; my own unique voice; money for grants and for my trips, workshops related to dance… Continue

ok, it is hard for me to keep a daily blog, but I will keep going no matter what!!! I will fight through my procrastinating tendencies! Or better, I will not procrastinate and make me feel guilty, I will attract abundance, work and finish all projects the best way possible. I will attract $50,000, plus grants so I can do my research abroad, travel and do dance workshops and pay off my apartment! I hope to share with and help other people in the process, be a good role model for my students.
I am… Continue

I finally decided to start this. I will start today since I will be out of town for a few days. My intentions are to keep up with a plan or intention since I tend to get lazy and never complete any project such as this. To chant or meditate everyday, to be healthy, have a healthy stomach. My intentions are to eat well, to be a good teacher, to make good friends and socialize, to make more money to pay off my apartment, to do well in school, to be more involved with theatre and dance. I will mani… Continue