I've been neglectful of giving my intentions to the 100 Day Reality Challenge, but the good thing is that I meditate at the lake on a daily basis, and I'm sober.
I've moved up here from Reno for several reasons...the first being a friend is in trouble himself, and I love him very much and felt the need to help out. We're going to be roommates as soon as he gets home from jail. (He's a very intelligent guy who has made some extremely bad choices.) I'm staying in "our" apartment at the moment, wi…
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Posted on March 19, 2008 at 2:19pm — 2 Comments
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Since the last time I was here (and OH so hopeful!) I've binged and lost more jobs than I can count. I just lost another one a few weeks ago and am again unemployed. I don't think my body OR mind can take much more. I'm not so slowly killing myself these days. I'll be 50 in November and I know people even younger than me who have died from alcohol's effects.
I absolutely cannot continue in this cycle of self-destruction.
May Ha'Shem bring you Health and Healing through your obedience
Shabbat Shalom...from "J&T"
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And the reason that you are having strong mood swings is that you have a fast moving stream of wellness going, you are resisting it and trying to make too big of a jump emotionally. Another words, if you are feeling anger, reach for frustrating types of thoughts first and don't force yourself to be joyful...it's too big of a jump at that moment. Be gentle about it.
Let me know if I can provide some more clarity for you...happy to do it...no accident that we connected here..lol
It matters not what you have done yesterday or last week or 2 years ago. But, if you focus on those things and patterns, you will get more of the same.
You are doing fabulous.
Chris -you have to really want to be healthy for yourself.
It's about self love- being true to yourself. Think of what you want, instead of going for the bottle- long range goals for you. Write, breath, call someone & figure out what it means to "let go completely"....there's allot support & programs...but it has to come from you first. are you willing to just be yourself & contact that higher self that connects to Universal law? You're worth it.
It's hard to make it alone without an active support group- that's why meetings work for millions of people everyday in many spiritual ways.
Don't give up, nobody is perfect. We are all just doing the best we can with what we got for today.
Think of what really gives you pleasure -activities, passions, dancing, whatever...keep the faith!!!
J-
By the grace of god I am not an addict though I tried. However, I was a broken man thru divorce. Heart crushed and life crushed really. Chronically depressed and angry and resentful. In a way I was becoming addicted to these emotions.
I have really no idea of your struggles but whatever it is you can do to live clean and happy do it. I have had my dark night of the soul and was thinking about suicide a couple times. That is how bad it was.
You have limitless strength and power inside you. I envision you clean and happy with all you desire around you.
Big love,
Bill
So now...I'm writing and visualizing what I want my life to be like, what I want to become. I'm doing a Kundalini Yoga meditation in the morning that's specifically made to lose addiction. I realize this is a choice for me, and that I can continue to throw my life away, (look at how many days, even YEARS, I've lost!!) or truly live it. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to create, to draw on a blank canvas, my reality.
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