"All the days that I'm alive I strive to understand, not to be understood."

Embracing chaos is something that we should all adopt. Chaos seems to be created by vibrations that are very high. And the driving emotions for these high vibrations are love and joy.

I have suffered from depression in the past and it allowed me to really think about why someone would get depressed. Science seems to want to blame in on brain chemicals which I'm sure do change when there is a dysfunction within us but I don't think that it is the underlying problem. We all seem to be on a journey and we all seem to be figuring out the lesson that this life is teaching us which is why there are so many different people with different ideas and lives. In my journey I have been able to think through the depression to see the cause of it. (I tend to have mini "realizations" from time to time)

Depression can be a comfort trap. It can be a place that feels safe even though the feelings aren't happy ones. The reason for this is that the vibration of depression is so low that nothing changes. When in a static environment there is nothing to be fearful of yet, ironicly, fear could be the driving emotion behind your low vibration. But at least that feeling won't change. It was actually comforting to me. It was something I had control over in my life.

I grew to realize that I can have control over my life without being in that state. I grew to know that the chaos that was around me that I felt I couldn't control was actually all my creation. And when that realization came I was able to reduce the low vibrations that came in my head and was able to interact with the higher vibrations that were surrounding me with just my thoughts.

I know this may be jumbled but I wanted to write it down. Any questions? For some reason I think best when responding to a question.