Insight for Unconscious impatience, fear, interference

[Claire]

Okay, this is a very personal insight, painful even yeah to my ego, as I have to admit to myself finally how much I used to do it either subconsciously or consciously! I have learnt a lot about recently about how impatience, fear of life's process not working and complaining about impatience, keeps away all the good stuff the universe wants to show you and yes, even the things you say you want. I was just printing something out on my computer and it reminded me of this analogy: impatiently clicking on the picture I wanted to printed this was the kind of internal dialogue I was having with myself: "hmm why isn't it printing? I've clicked on print ( impatiently clicking on different print related icons!) It has enough ink -yeh hmm, etc - and you know what? All the while the print page was patiently waiting behind the image/page of the item I wanted to print out. So it was there, ready, all along - what was delaying it was my own "messing" with the process because of my impatience, fear of the process not working. I had to take myself out of the way, take away the impatience, fear of failure and "interfering" of the process to let it work like it always has.

Unrelated, but still connected partly to impatience and lack of trust,was my acute criticism of fellow travellers, returning from a leisure trip to Barcelona., last week, Wow - people seemed so impatient! What was with the "me first" attitude at every step?! Surely the plane couldn't leave till everyone was on board anyway - so what was the rush to race to the front of the queue - for a window seat? because we could? Because of some macho (or feminine) ego?!
Returning from Spain in particular, I found myself almost "irritated" by the complete self assurance of the english lady in front. Even though she was way too early for the gate, she was impatient almost to the point of tutting. She appeared to have no insight into other people around her or into her own behaviour or thoughts. Now of course, I'm not blaming here - I'm asking what did this lady and other travellers have to show me about what I need to learn and I think it is this:
relax, let go, you ARE enough, you are DOING enough, everythng is happening in the right time/space sequence and by being impatient and "interfering" through fear and doubt - this is only delaying the goodies of life even more!

if I am being COMPLETELY honest I was JEALOUS of her complete and utter self assurance - she , her husband and her family were typical tall, middle class example of Brits and I could imagine them looking down on some of the people around them. She seemed like she never had any self-doubt, any sensitivity to any reflection of herself - only that she was always right and everyone else was wrong - despite the fact that she was there too early and was biting at the bit like an impatient racehorse lol She would probably not have painful spiritual growth or insights because in her world she was always right and everyone else was wrong - what was it that irritated me about her? Aspects of self that needed changing quite possibly

[Isabel Swan]

They say everything you dislike or are jealous of in someone else, is a reflection of something you are denying in yourself.
I think you need to love the self-assured always right bitch in YOU.

[Mary Kay]

Thank you for sharing this. I got a shiver angel hug when reading the words relax, let go, you ARE enough, you are DOING enough, everythng is happening in the right time/space sequence. So, so, true and easy to let creep up on us if we're not living on purpose and being consious.