Improving my Attraction's Law Manifestation Power...

[Amir]

Hello everybody! New to these forums and I'm also still new to the Attraction's Law, and am still a beginner, so I might end up making a million discussion topics on the Attraction's Law but I will say everything here. So bare with me people.

General
So, I've come to know about The Secret, the Law of Attraction, ever since '06 and while at some case I was sucessful in appliying it, I've failed here and then, and somehow it's because of me. I will cover those later.

Attracting Money
So last summer, I asked the Universe for $10 grand. After days of visualizing it, having the money, feeling the money, I just for some reason couldn't get the $10,000 to come to me. But months before that I would find it easier to ask for $300 or $400, and it would be given to me from my relatives. I did find $5 once on the bus and once under a desk at school and MAN THAT felt guuud!!! Now I've asked to win the $200,000. I didn't. The Universe found a better way to get me the $200,000 I'm asking for now.

Laptop
About a year ago, I've asked the Universe for a laptop, a specific kind of Dell laptop. I would feel it, feel the passion, feel the keypad... and for some reason I can't seem to manifest that either! What is it that I'm doing wrong? How much passion does the Universe want from me for it to give me my laptop? I mean, I know I'm AFFIRMING that I don't have it but before that I wasn't able to manifest the kind of laptop that I want.

All else
I have had things that I've wanted, like $200,000, a laptop, entertainment memorabilia, but I don't know why but because I'm a beginner, I haven't been able to manifest the BIGGER things, I mean, I tried smaller things like some clay, a special DVD, but later wanted them one day and then a week later say, "Y'know what, this can wait..." Some people are going to throw this advice my way but I DID do a graditude list of all the things I can think of to be grateful for. Because seriously people! How can be so ungrateful and want more? I mean, It's okay to want more than what you already ahve but be grateful for what you already have now! and be grateful that the things that you want are on their way. Like I know that somehow, even though I've given up on them, the money, the laptop, the movie costumes are all on their way to me...

Relationships
Another thing I've been trying to manifest for a yeah and MY MOST IMPORTANT MANIFESTATION GOAL, manifesting a girlfriend. I've wanted to manifest my ideal woman for a year now but April '09 is when I REALLY knew the type of woman that I wanted and I have a good few of her pictures (another woman that looks like her). I would visualize her everyday. I even said the day before Spring Break, "Y'know what? I will meet my ideal woman right after Spring Break." Still failed, but I KNOW THAT SHE IS ON HER WAY TO ME SOMEHOW!!! I WILL SEE HER VERY SOON!

HOWEVER!!! When I go out into the world or venture on a trip, the affirmative thought that "Oh! This is where I may meet my ideal woman" always finds its way into my head and I think that's what's blcoking her from coming to me!?!?! I'm not supposed to worry about the "hows" of things! I'm supposed to know that the things and people I want will come to me and that they already came!!! I need to stop these thoughts. When I visualize sitting in her van with her, being in bed with her, kissing each other, and carssing each other (excuse me if i'm being inappropriate), I actually feel the passion and MAN... it feels soo right! It feels so right being in a van with her. Mmm! Even though I did my daily visualization of her today... I'm thinking about it again right now... and just seeing her in my head,,, even without closeing my eyes... It just feels SOOO RIGHT!!! She looks just like the woman i have posted on my vision board!!!

Affirmations that I'm about to start practicing:
All the things that I want materialize quickly and effortlessly!

God knows everything that I want and cares!

I am having a healthy, wonderful relationship with my voluptuous full-figured girlfriend!

I am a loving person.

Questions:
- I'm not giving up but do any of you suppose when i don't do my visualization for ONE DAY and say to the universe, "Y'know what, I'm letting it go to you and may you handle this the way YOU intended it Universe!" will it actually work? I mean, I did this for other minor things and it happened for me! And I visualize this girl EVERY DAY!!!... like I'm supposed to...
- Affirmations like "Where is it, it ain't here" tend to block manifestations but say when you're in debt and you say to the Universe, "I'm not in debt" will only keep you in debt. HOW???

Thoughs? They are all gratly appriciated. OH! Thank you very much for taking the time to read this long message and replying!

[James Goi Jr]

That makes sense... The law never rests...
James